Summer

20*

Heyyy

Really tired of life so this might suck

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Floating.

You know when your on a float in the middle of a pool and the sun is shining and everything just seems amazing.

Well, I'm floating in the middle of Scar's pool and the sun is shining. But nothing seems amazing and thats when you know things have gone to crap.

I look up at the pale blue sky, it was particularly hot today, Scar had decided to come out of her room and enjoy the rays, it was nice to see her happier.

If she could ever be happy again.

My mum was wearing a flowing maxi dress reading a book on a sun lounger next to Scar.

I had forgiven her for when we had our spat and she had forgiven me for running off to the fair.

Everyone was shocked by Scar's will, but it was expected. Troy was like her son, he needed the money.

Cam, Keeg, Troy and even their mother had come to the house.

Miss Duke never has time, but lately she has been trying to help Troy, I think to show Scar that she is here no matter what.

That was the only good thing from all of this.

Troy was painting next to Scar, Cam and Keegs played volleyball near the pool.

Without me.

Things were very awkward, but I couldn't blame them after all, I brought this on myself.

Dad was on the barbecue with a local friend of Scar's chatting away.

I felt lost as I floated in my pink float in the middle of the pool submerged in an aqua blue.

I was miserable and alone. And I hated when I felt sorry for myself, I needed them, maybe they didn't need me, but I did.

I have to make things right, this is wrong. Scar hasn't been this happy in a long time and I want to keep that smile on her face.

The only way to do that is to get the Dukes on board, so I needed to make amends.

Even if I would have to lose the only person I ever loved.

Love.

Its so strange and makes me feel like my heart will explode any second.

A flurry of passion, a moment of sadness.

Take a chance, Shay.

GO!

I get out of the pool and dry myself off. I sidle up to the volleyball game quietly.

Cam's best friend, Jordan was here and he was against the Dukes and losing badly. He was the only one who acknowledged my existence.

I took a deep breath.

"Hey Jordan, need a partner?" I ask, his eyes move to me and he grins.

"Sure Shay-" He starts.

"We don't need another player." Cam says coldly.

Ouch.

"But its uneven." I reply quietly, looking away from him.

"Yeah man let her-" Jordan tries again.

"Troy can be your partner." says Cam stiffly.

Why was he being so cold? It wasn't awkward it was hatred, a burning fury in his eyes. I was scared.

"He's painting." I try again.

"I'm done." Troy suddenly gets up.

"B-but.." I stutter, they can't just disown me.

"Dear God, aren't you going to leave now?" says Cam, laughing at me.

Tears spring in my eyes.

"Dude I think-" Keegs put his arm on Cam, looking at me with pity.

I don't want his pity! I didn't do anything to them and to be honest Troy was the one leading me on.

He never said he liked me, he never fought, so what I should just wait around?

I was furious, maybe if he had shown something towards me, I would have never kissed Luke.

He makes everything complicated and now he has his brothers against me.

Pitiful.

"You know what Cam? Piss off. If your brother can't fight his own battles, then that is pathetic." I say with rage.

Troy looks at me with anger.

"Don't blame this on my brother, he is looking out for me." Troy's jaw tenses.

"Great for you Troy." I say and walk away.

My mom stops me. "He's hurting." She says.

"Well so am I." I say and then I run crying away before my mom can stop me.

...

Its not fair.

Summer is ruined.

My life is ruined. Scar is ill, Nina is gone, Troy hates me, scratch that, all the Dukes hate me. My parents are fighting their grief with fake smiles and I'm just trying to get through it.

Why?

Summer was never like this, I hardly ever fought with the boys. Not like this.

I cry on my porch swing, fed up.

Then I see a figure approaching in my blurry teared vision, I wipe them away.

It's Cam, I freeze.

He looks shocked and in pain. He looks at me with guilt, running his hands through his sandy hair.

Then he kicks the porch table in anger, "Dammit!"

I start getting up.

"Wait Shay!" He grabs me by the arm, I shake him off.

"I'm sorry." He says with such guilt, that I know he means it.

"Great." I move away, still hurt.

"Please. I don't know why I said that." He pleads.

"I do, because you blame Troy's sadness on me." I say.

"Yeah but-" He starts.

"He's caused me more pain, never telling me how he really feels leaving me to interpret his mixed emotions. And it sucks. My aunt is dying, my best friend hates me and now you!" I scream.

"I don't hate you." He whispers.

"Terrific." I say sarcastically, I see Troy behind Cam. Troy looks at me with wary eyes, the fury ignites again at the sight of him.

"Oh and Troy, congratulations I feel shit, hope that makes you feel better. And yeah I kissed Luke because I was hurt not because I like him. We all make mistakes Troy, but your not perfect yourself. Can you forgive?" I say, tears glistening in my eyes.

And with that I leave, not even looking at him to see his reaction.

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Woah!

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