Summer

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Less tears now aha:)

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Mom took leave from work. She stayed in the summer house with Scar.

I went to it every weekend with Dad for the last two weeks. It was hard to concentrate at school, thinking that I could get that dread phone call at any point.

Troy had taken a permission leave from Stanford for a month. He spent everyday with Scar. Nina visited Scar once and she was shocked to see her so weak, she cried after.

Cam and Keegs helped with errands and visited Scar often but they had school too.

We tried acting normal, but we all felt tense like Scar could fade away at any moment.

We tried to make Scar happy and it seemed to be working, even though she was weak, she had a healthy glow and a real smile on her face.

Troy painted with her, but Scar's hands were too shaky, so he painted for her.

I was working on a piece for Scar and was wondering when I should unveil my work.

Believe it or not Troy and I were stronger than ever. We had an understanding.

Scar came first.

We bonded over our care for her.

Scar loves vinyl records, so I went to the vinyl store getting everything from Billy Holiday to Tina Turner. We played records all day, Troy and I dancing like lunatics humouring Scar.

Scar is also a huge Red Sox fan so we managed to get VIP seats to a game. A cancer perk of the sympathetic world. It was great to see her shouting words of encouragement to the players and eating bowls of popcorn. Scar was back.

For now.

Scar and I were having a lazy day, we had done the America's next top model marathons and now we were watching re runs of Friends.

I had ransacked the junk food counter and brought us marshmallows, chocolate, biscuits, crisps and everything bad. After eating our body weight in food, I painted Scar's toenails.

As I did this, Scar stroked my hair in a motherly way which was comforting.

"What you thinking about?" Scar asks.

"Nothing."

"Don't lie to me."

"You know what it is." I sigh.

"Hey Shay, I am not going anywhere."

"B-but-" My lips starts to tremble, I could hide behind all of this, but the raw hurt was still there. The grief was always there.

"I am always there no matter what." Scar says pointing to my heart.

I cry silently sobbing. Scar rocks me back and forth.

"When you miss me, go to Washington Hill and watch the sun rise, that is where I'll be." Scar says.

"Promise?" I say pathetically.

"Promise." Scar smiles at me and kisses my forehead.

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Omfg this is too sad...

I cant even bye..

-crazy19