Slipped Away

Part 64

December 27

What a wonderful surprise my dear friend! Daniel unexpectedly showed up to see me! Their was a threat of a blizzard where they were at, so they came home early to beat the storm. Dare I say, maybe my happiness isn't doomed after all. Christmas was all the more special now that he was here with me. Terry said she never seen me smile so big. That's just what he does to me though. It's amazing! We had ham and the trimmings for Christmas dinner, and then we went to midnight mass. It briefly made me think of my parents. I wondered what they would think about the things I've been through? Would they still love me? Would they be disgusted? Would they hate me and disown me as their daughter? The thought made me tear up, and I had to lie to everyone that it was because I was so touched by what the priest was talking about.

Aside from Daniel being back, the druggie kids have started ignoring me now like I'm invisible. I'm so relieved! I don't know how much more I could have taken. This also means I don't even get noticed by the straight kids either. Again I tried talking to them, and again they rejected me. All I get is cold stares when I pass them by in the halls. One girl though actually did start talking to me a little. Her name is Judy. She's part of the straight set, and she told me there was a party she was going to held by one of her friends. She asked if I wanted to go and I explained that I would but don't think her friends would invite me. She told me she would talk to them and let me know. Turns out I did get invited, and boy was I ever nervous! You'd think I'd never been to a party before. Terry helped me pick out a nice dress, and she offered to drive me and pick me up after.

The party actually turned out to be good. I was afraid when I got there they would all ignore me, but they were friendly and I had a good time. I even got invited to another party! How wonderful is that? Now that Daniel is back we have been spending a lot of time together. It's to the point I don't really have time to keep a diary, what with school, Daniel, (which has become serious) and now my new friends I made. It seems like my life is getting better, and I couldn't be happier!

Diary you've been my friend through so much. You always listened and I'll forever be grateful, but I think I will have to part ways with you now. I will keep you in a safe place, so I can look back on you when I'm older. Well it's really late and I'm tired. So now I will go to bed and dream of a future with sweet Daniel.