Slipped Away

Part 13

January 19

I went to the drug store today and you'll never guess who I saw! The girl from Vangie's party, Lou. We said hi and again those feelings from that night came crashing down on me, right there in the middle of the drug store! Even if I wanted to hang with Lou, there's no way I could bring her home to Aunt Starr. Lou looks like a total hippie, and next to her I must look like the biggest square on the planet! Her hair is long and straight, I still wear mine in a flip. Her clothes are bell bottoms with peace signs and vests, mine are nice straight legged pants and sweaters or blouses. She had on this beautiful paisley headband that brought out the green in her eyes though.
She told me about a party going on later and that there would be "enough grass going around that even the establishment couldn't get rid of" and that I should
come. She even said we should go together! Like a dumb pudding I just stood there staring at her, frozen in place. Just when I was about to answer she
nudged up against me, took my hand, and placed three joints in it. "Just a little taste of things to come" she whispered in my ear. I almost died! And right in the middle of the drug store where anybody could see! And tell Aunt Starr!
I quickly shoved the joints in my pocket and she just smiled at me! She smelled of Loves baby soft, because when she left her perfume lingered like a faded memory.
God forgive me, but I've never been more turned on in my life, not even by a guy!
What am I gonna do?

Later

I didn't smoke the joints Lou gave me. At first I was gonna pitch them and than I thought it wouldn't hurt to hold on to them for a rainy day. Since
Aunt Starr is no longer tearing my room apart for incriminating evidence, I put them safely away where she can't find them. I so desperately wanted to smoke one though after the encounter with Lou. If I had been at Terry's instead of here I would have.
Lou is pretty.
She's seventeen, like Vangie, and she drives. She works at this really cool head shop______and often gets discounts. I really do want to kiss her, and I know I shouldn't.
I'm sure she's straight and digs guys, and besides, what the hell would she see in me anyway? I'm younger than she is, a square, (somewhat) and I don't drive.
We don't even know the same people except for Vangie, and I just met Vangie not all that long ago. I met her through Ginger who's known her about a year.
The first time I ever did drugs was at that party Vangie invited me to and where I met Lou. I'm sure she's done more than pot. I heard of acid and other drugs but never was in a situation where they were available. But I think I would now if I had the chance. Especially acid. Yeah I've heard of bad trips but I've also heard of good trips. I don't know, it all is so confusing!