Slipped Away

Part 60

October 31

Hey friend, so sorry I haven't written in you. It's been almost a whole month! But so much has happened since I last wrote in you. Daniel and I have started dating. Terry and Michael have met him and really like him. So has Ginger. She's happy that I've found happiness. They think he's good for me. He's even helped me with my school work and I'm finally caught up. It's Halloween and I've been invited to a few parties, but I declined since they were from the druggie crowd. Again the square kids act as if I don't exist. But I don't let it bother me since now I have Daniel.

I broke down and finally told him about my drug history. Surprisingly, he was understanding and not disgusted when I told him about all my experiences and what I've done. Oh diary I was so scared he'd want nothing more to do with me after hearing all of that! He is the most sweetest and understanding guy I've ever met. He even goes with me sometimes to my group sessions, for support. It's almost dinner time, so I will tell you the rest later.

Later

So here is the rest of what has happened. Daniel and I also slept together for the first time last week. He was very patient in waiting until I was ready, which really is kind of a joke considering all the sex I had. I guess I was afraid it wouldn't be any good. It was the first time I've slept with someone completely sober. It's so different. You're aware of everything going on and you feel everything in a different way. I still had an orgasm, even though I was afraid I wouldn't be able to and I didn't want Daniel to think it was something he did wrong. I must say, sex is better sober. I felt so connected to Daniel, looking into his eyes and being in his arms. I still am attracted to girls but there is something about Daniel that pushes that away. I can't put my finger on what exactly, just that I'm sad when he's gone (we go to different schools), and elated when he's here with me. Well, friend I should get bed. Big test tomorrow in English! Goodnight.