Slipped Away

Part 33

April 4

Dinner last night was fun. We laughed and talked like a family and Terry's new boyfriend Michael told me about his job and how they met. He works at_____,which sounds really exciting and I can't wait to hear more about it!
After dinner we went to a movie and just had a lovely time. Earlier Ginger came over and we talked a long time. She told me Vangie took some bad pills and ended up in the hospital and almost died! She's alright but it scared her enough to consider leaving the drug scene altogether. I don't blame her. Drugs are evil and disgusting. They make you do and say disgusting things. She also informed me that Lou took off with Damien and nobody's seen them since. In some ways that hurts but it also means I'm off the hook with having to break it off with her.

April 7

Being back in school is so weird. I got called to the principle's office during English class and no sooner do I sit down he starts into a lecture about how he
will not put up disobedience in his school and that young ladies don't act the way I have been lately. Then he said I was a disgusting example of young womanhood in America.
What an awful thing to say to somebody! When he finished I just left feeling dejected and like garbage thrown in a trash can. Kids shouldn't hear things like that.
What kids need is understanding and compassion, love and support. Not insults and put downs. What a jerk!
And if that wasn't bad enough this guy Roger came up to me and had the nerve to ask if I was holding! I guess while I was away some rumers went around about me
and now I'm known as a pusher I guess. But I'm not! I'm done with drugs and the crap it brings with it. When I told Roger no I wasn't he just smirked and my stomach lurched and I thought I might be sick so I ran to the ladies room. Is that what people really think? That I will be on again and that I'm a pusher? Oh, I hope not! That would be terrible having that kind of a reputation.

Later

I just got off the phone with Ginger and I guess it's all true. She said people have been calling me "easy lay" and "Druggie slut" while I was away and that they
still are. Great. Now I have a bad reputation and I wonder if I'll lose Ginger too. She's says she's still my friend but if they start hassling her enough that may
change and then I will have no friends and that would suck. The square kids don't even know I exist and every time I try talking to them they give me cold looks and act like I'm not there. And I can't be friends with the dopers, obviously because that would mean I'd be turned on again and right back in the same mess
as before. I wish there was an easier way..