Slipped Away

Part 40

April 28

______ showed up at school today and just watched me from his car and I was so frightened that I didn't even bother going to my next class which was in the next building.
Instead I went back in the building and hid in the girls room for the whole period. When the bell rang I came out and when I dared to go back outside he was gone but I was still shaken up the rest of the day. I've been really thinking of splitting but I don't want to do that and make Terry worry about me but if I leave her a note then I have
to tell her about _______ and she probably won't believe me because he's got everyone fooled. If I don't leave I will go crazy and I'm already so sore that its becoming
hard to even sit without feeling some sort of pain afterwards or doing the exercises in Gym class. I haven't even told Justine and she doesn't even know _______ but I'm afraid. When I'm really hurting, I'll
go outside and smoke a joint and that usually kills the pain but it can only do so much. I wish I had some ludes or tranquilizers so I could sleep since I have such a hard
time getting comfortable. Maybe Justine can get some, then if I know that he is around and going to do that I can take some ahead of time so I'd be fucked up and out of it while it's going on. What I really want though is for it to stop and for him to go away and leave me alone. I wish mom and dad were here, they would believe me, even Aunt Starr.
I'd give anything for a hug from my dad and to see both of them just one more time.