Who you see is not who I am

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Chosen pov
"When I went to school the next day I was getting called all types of vulgar and degrading thing I was so confused because normally it's like your random token people that bully you every and I didn't know what was going on until

Bebe found me in the hallway and dragged me out the school and showed me the video I was heartbroken I felt betrayed I wanted to die and that's exactly what I tired to do the bullying got ten times worse

They made me hate myself hate the way I dressed, acted, looked I hated my body so when I got home from school one day I took some pain killers the whole bottle then I broke one of my razors slitting my arms from inner elbow to my wrist then I laid in the bathtub

And if it wasn't for Belize coming in for our daily homework session I would have been dead may 12,2019 would have been the date" tears were falling all around the room especially me because only my family know the story

And it's still a hard one to tell "so what did your dad do I wanna know everything please finish your story" Juni said as he laid in my lap sobbing

But I wanna see if I can do it I normally choke up before I can finish my story I know I'm stronger now "ok....ok after Belize found me she pulled me out the tube and wrapped a blanket around me and called for anyone in the house

And my brother Pharaoh came from in his room his being closest to mine he seen what was going on so he picked me up and put me in his car driving me at full speed to the hospital

That had to be the scariest moments for everybody in my life because my parents were out of town best time to do it I guess but they came rushing back home to the hospital

My parents wanted to know why I did it my father was furious he told me I had everything I wanted he told me that I was selfish he just sat and yelled at me until Bebe stood up yelling right back at him and told him everything that happened

My father felt so bad and was so outraged he called Mr.Michelson immediately and threatened to call the cops but from what I know there was some type of money exchange

Then my father sat in my hospital room and told me everything was erased off the internet and everyone should forget what happened about senior year I was highly confused on what was going on so I told him be completely honest with me

And he sat there and looked me dead in my fucking pupils and said him and Mr.Michelson made an agreement but he will be taking me out of school for only a year to let me heal properly and get the help I need but I will finish out highschool in an actual school then

He said that I will continue to associate with Miles like nothing ever happened when I go back to school but not at all when I'm in home school I was destroyed I thought my own father didn't even love me

But at the end of the day I'm kinda happy I went through all of that that whole year I lost lots of weight I learn how to become confident and independent but most importantly I learned my self worth

That self improvement came with lots of baggage but I'm better now" they all hugged me and comforted me "is that all we will sit and listen to you all night if you want us to"

I be shook my head "yeah pretty much after I went back to school senior year I looked different and acted different most people didn't even realize who I was until graduation when they called my name and I walked across the stage

But I realized that after I came back I stopped getting bullied people wanted me and thought I was sexy but I would rather die then be with people who bullied me even Miles are fathers forced us to date until we graduated because it was good for Miles fathers complain

But right we I tossed my cap in the air it was fuck that nigga yeah I still fucked him every now and again but that was just the heartless bitch in me he started to want something he couldn't have and that made me happy

But like I said I'm glad because when I went to college I was hell bent on never dating or talking to nobody ever again then I met Ace which at first drove me crazy but I got use to having a crush then I met y'all and all of you make me the happiest I have ever been in my whole fucking life

I might have been through a lot but I would do it a million time over again if y'all are my prize at the end"

Ari then reach over and have me a kiss "I'm so happy we make you comfortable enough to share that story and we hope we can give you better memories in the future we love you Chosen"

Before I could say anything else we heard a light thud coming down the steps to then see Nova and Safiya laying at the bottom with tear stained eyes

"What the fuck are y'all doing bro get the fuck outta here" Ari said furious that they were ear hustling "no babe it's ok do y'all wanna come and sit with us"

The girl then started to slowly walk over in our space then stood in front of me and said "we are sorry for all the thing we said to you if we would have known you went through so much we would have been ways nicer we actually think

You are very pretty and confident and hopefully we can be friends in the near future" I just chuckled what I have been through made me mature fast at a young age so I understand why they act the way they do

"Yeah I would really like that how about we all just chill and watch a movie i think that was enough tears shed for tonight"

Everyone nodded then piled up on the couch as the girl call down their dominants so we could all have a good movie night