Who you see is not who I am

70.

Chosen pov
"Girl you sure your brother won't be mad like went are at a bdsm club dressed like this and you turned both of our locations off he's gonna be pissed I know it" I shrugged because it's been like 3 hours since the whole miles mishap

And all the boys are mad at me Ace and Ari aren't trying to say it but I know they are mad hence why when I asked them to talk they said we will discuss everything tomorrow then me and Juni argued two more times

Before I decided to barge in my brothers room grab Nai give her an outfit now we are at a bdsm club because it's safe,upscale,and my family is members so I can drink without being questioned

"My brother will be fine you were my friend first it's not my fault I met you before him" she giggled "yeah I know but him and his wife are really starting to like me and I think they might ask me to be there sub"

I looked at her blankly because my brother lives here and our school is an hour away which means she might have to transfer schools and I might be being dramatic but my life is crumbling

"Oh ok that's fine" she raised her eyebrow "that's it ok that's fine Chosen what's going on you don't sound like yourself is everything ok like what's going on aren't you happy for me" I nodded "yeah....yeah I'm super happy I'm just not in a cheerful mood"

She nodded "oh ok we'll do you wanna tell me what's wrong now" I looked at her for another second blankly before I said "you know what nah I'm starting to get a headache it's kinda loud in here and the lights are bugging me

And I think I just wanna be alone right now so here's what we are gonna do take these keys and drive the car back to the house and tell the boys that I'm safe and just need some time" she looked confused

"Wait safe time Chosen what's going on with you" I groaned and said "please just do what I say please Nailani" before dropping the keys and 50 dollars for the bill on the table in front of us and getting up

Then walking out before I called my Uber

*time jump*
So i didn't know where I wanted to go or what I wanted to do but I know I needed comfort so my brain decided on the hospital where my dad is so I just walked straight in and up to his room

And then I walked in to see him sleeping with his reading glasses on and a book on his chest which made me huff and walk over to a chair in the corner of the room but I couldn't hold it back anymore and started sobbing

I hate myself I never do anything right every time I get something good I always fuck it up why am I such a fuck up "babydoll is that you what are you doing here so late" I quickly whipped my tears and stood up walking over to him

"Hey dad I just wanted to make sure you had you know enough ice and jello that's all" making my dad wipe the sleep out his eyes before sitting up snd chuckling "at 3:30 in the morning baby how did you even get in visiting hours are over"

I shrugged "I just walked straight up it's surprising and scary how little the nurses pay attention when they are tired and ready to go home" he shook his head "I see but what for the visit you haven't come to see me since I got put in here"

I shrugged "I just wanted to see you that's all" he chuckled "Chosen I'm not your momma you can't lie to me and get away with it I know you and based by the streaks in your makeup you have been crying so spill"

I huffed letting my pool of tears flow again "daddy I can't do it anymore I've been playing happy but i'm not my best friend moved to another state to get married I was forced into a relationship that is good now but I feel like every time I breath they are gonna leave me

And mommy hates me she wishes I was never born all she does it be mean to me criticize me and tell me how much of a fuck up I am and then Golden basically stole my friend the only friend I have

Daddy I just feel so alone I don't wanna be here anymore I wish it would have worked I wish nobody would have found me" my dad huffed and scooted over before tapping the bed next to him which I instantly got in and held on to my dad as tight as I could

"Look at me" I shook my head and continued sniffling but my dad grabbed my chin making me look at him "what's your name" i shook my head but he said it again for stern this time "what's your name"

I sniffed and said "my name is Chosen" he shook his head "no your whole name the name I gave you" "my Name is Chosen Trinity Thompson" he nodded "that's the name I gave you because you are The Chosen one

It's something special in you that I've seen in you since you was a baby you know it was always hard on you because I seen greatness when you took your first breath baby your strong you hear me

And I know life might seem hard now but trust me it gets better you just gotta learn how to weather your storm and momma don't hate you do she got some of her priorities fucked up a little yes she do but that's because she didn't have anything growing up

She came from nothing but once we got a little something she felt like she had to be the best making her act a little different and as far as your relationship goes I see how those boys look at you

It would take 5 lions and 2 bears to get them away from you and everything else is just life your friends still love you baby you just have to learn to share everything will be fine now I don't wanna here you talk that crazy talk no more ok

We need you and if anybody else don't I do your my child my baby girl and I love you ok" I listened to my dads words like they were poetry and nodded "I love you too"he nodded "now come on it's late and you look tired let's go to sleep"