Who you see is not who I am

69.

Chosen pov
"Ight babies what do y'all wanna eat we can either go out or order" so it's a few hours after my conversation with Miles and I'm nervous and I know what y'all are thinking bitch your stupid for even taking his apology

But look I know I said I hate him and had no feeling towards him and that's kinda true but then again he is my first love and my first everything and weather I like it or not some feeling is still gonna be there for him

But I'm also nervous what if Miles ask and I don't decline and they try to leave me thinking I cheated or that I wasted there time I'm just worried this has been the first time in years I've been genuinely happy

And I don't wanna loose them "Chosen what's wrong" I quickly jumped out my thoughts and said "huh what are you talking about" Ace looked at me with a raised eyebrow and said "you've been acting funny since you came back from the gym are you ok"

I nodded "yeah I'm cool just a little tired that's all" he looked at me for a second and said "so we lying now" I looked at him funny confused about what he was talking about and I guess he quickly caught on

"You play with your fingers and look down when your nervous or scared which indicates your now just tired your hiding something so just tell us now so we can evaluate the situation and see where we can go from here"

I shook my head "I....uhhh" before I could even get my words out we heard a knock on our room door making my heart sink into my ass but I didn't say anything as Ari went to go open the door "can we help you" he said his with his voice laced with an attitude

Which made him look over to me "you didn't tell them" I just wanted curl in a little fucking ball "tell us what Chosen" Juni said looking at me with nothing other than confusion and anger on his face

"I don't have anything to tell them you said you wanted something and I told you to talk to them don't make it seem like I'm hiding something from them" after I said that the boys looked back over to Miles and Ari said

"Speak then nigga" he sighed "so first I wanna start off by saying I'm sorry for everything I've done and said to y'all over the past couple weeks I've been an asswhole and I'm sorry for jumping you

I was just trying to win chosen back but I was going about it the wrong way like y'all met my folks my dad is a narcissist with communication problems and my momma is a push over so when it comes to kids you just get a bad mixed of both

But I guess I got more of my dads genes because I never meant to hurt her or to get on y'all's bad side she's just one of the best things that I ever had in my life and I fucked it up over some cool points"

All the boys listened looking blank face but I guess Juni was tired of hearing him talk so he said "ok nigga you saying a whole bunch without saying nothing clearly you already apologized to chose so what do you want from us"

He huffed "when I was talking to chosen earlier I let it be known that I wanted her and I still love her but she tired to friend zone me and she told me she loved and cared about y'all and had no intention of leaving y'all but that was never my intention

Since I know I fucked up but I still wanna be with her I wanted to include myself into what she loves most which is y'all and I know y'all have all the right in the world to say no but please just give me a chance"

They all looked at Miles unamused but the first one to speak was Ace "first off there are so many reason this cannot happen first off your straight and this relationship consists of 3 men already

Then your a dom and that again won't work because we already have two doms in this relationship and third you can't be trusted you fucked over chosen and you jumped Juni why the fuck should we dismiss everything you did just so you can be happy"

He sighed "I'm not asking for immediate forgiveness I know I have to gain trust and I'm willing to do that and I'm not a dominant it's just what my dad forced me to say I'm really a switch but I would need lessons on how to be submissive because I have never been in that mental state before

And third I know I like woman because that's all I've been with I've never been with a man so I don't know if I would like it or not" all the boys looked at him emotionless but after a few seconds Juni said "we'll talk your dismissed"

Making Miles look up at me but I immediately looked away because I choose my relationship so after I did that I heard a sigh then the door close but it was quiet for long because the next thing I heard was

"So you wanna be with that nigga" I looked back to the boy knowing it was Juni's voice and said "I never said that" he sucked his teeth "mufucka you didn't protest either"

"Because I didn't know what the fuck to say he came to me crying and apologizing shit true be told I'm not even mad at him for what he did in the past I'm mad for what he did recently

But it's just not in me to be that much of a bad person" he looked at me taken back and said "then go be with that nigga then" before I could say anything else he was marching out the room and slammed the door behind him