Who you see is not who I am

73.

Chosen pov
"Daddy I felt like I was the one to put you in the hospital because you were trying to makeup for what you did years ago and true be told I'm not mad about that anymore yes does it still hurt like fucking hell yes because

That was the first traumatic thing that really happened to me that tested my character as a person but I'm not mad anymore it just taught me a lesson and built character was is good character traits no but can't nobody get over on me no more and

That's how I like it now Queen this on going beef we had for years is fucking pointless we both have been victims to mommas slander but this beef has been going on since I took my first breath and true be told it made me hate you for years but

I just know now that you just wanted momma to be proud of you and you thought I was getting in the way of her seeing your success momma I don't even know where to start with you but ima start it off like this your the reason a good part of me is broken

You cared so much about daddy you treated your kids so poorly making all of us have some sort of resentment for you but what hurt me the most is what you said recently I sat there and told you the reason why I so called put daddy in the hospital

And showed you hard core solid proof and you called me a liar and blamed it on my body issues which was honestly a shank and a twist because I never knew the person who gave birth to such smart and caring people could be such a demon

Then you steady tried time and time again to set me up with the person who cause my trauma because it looks good for an image when I told you I was in love and now babies I'm so sorry.....I'm so so fucking sorry

I love y'all like so fucking much like I have never ever been this fucking happy in a relationship in my life but everything was moving so fast like I know we all are probably going through the same thing but are stronger than me

Like 3 people,3 sets of emotions,3 personalities I just constantly felt like a chicken with my head cut off trying to please everybody and do what's right and I didn't wanna complain because y'all are super amazing and I am grateful for y'all but

I just felt overwhelmed and Miles came to me crying I honestly didn't know what to do or what to say so when he came to the room I just let him talk and I know it made y'all feel a way but I didn't have the heart of energy to deal with that situation

Already having it out with my mom every night but I know me leaving a needing space put something heavy on y'all to think about and I do understand if y'all don't wanna be with me anymore my decisions to leave without communicating was selfish and childish

But it's what I needed I feel like entering our relationship we forget we were individuals and not just a relationship and I'm sorry once again I'm just gonna keep saying it because I'm running out of words to say I'm just so sorry" I started crying as soon as I started talking but now I was fucking sobbing

I felt so weak

"Walk up the stairs Chosen" I looked up hearing Ari voice sniffing and wiping my eyes "huh what" he just pointed to the steps and I looked at everybody in the room but every was just looking back at me so I just turned on my heels and walked up the steps

Until I got to my bedroom and the boys were right behind me and they didn't say anything they just closed the door Juni went over to the Alexa and turned on some music then Ace turned the lights out the only light coming from

The moonlight coming through my window that was very bright I could really only see there silhouettes "what are y'all doing" I said genuinely confused before I felt someone come behind me and run there fingers through my hair before getting a good grip on my hair

"Shhh just let it happen" Ace said in my ear making shivers run down my back so I just nodded waiting for something else to happen and I didn't have to wait long seeing as though someone put there face in my neck and started sucking hard

As the last person lifted my shirt and started to suck on my boob "uhh my goodness" it felt so good I didn't know who was were but it felt so fucking good they know how to treat my fucking body and I love it

They just kept feeling and licking all over me until someone finally took my shirt off throwing it across the room then my pants followed until I was only left in a tiny thong which made the boy that was behind me growl which was a dead giveaway to be Ace

Because when he likes to see something he makes a growling noise but before I could even do anything or say anything I was being lifted off my feet and I heard some shuffling before I was laid on the bed and I was laid on somebody

Their hands going back in my hair as they rubbed my neck and ears knowing it turns me on then another one of the boys sucked on my boobs going between them both licking,biting,and slapping them making me a moaning mess until

I felt my legs get lifted up to a point I could hold them without assistance then my panties got slid to the side then I felt a big dick start sliding into me as he had his thumb on my slit moving in circles

"Oh my goodness baby please go slow it's so big" this has to be Ari he's so thick and long it feels like his dick goes on for miles making me put my hand on his hip but he just moved my hand intertwining our fingers as he kept stroking

In complete silence the only thing being heard was my moans and the low playing music in the back and I felt amazing