Crowley/Lucifer FanFiction

We Shouldn't

I had been with Lucifer for a few nights now, ignoring the phone calls from everyone, even Charlie. 

Lucifer had warded the building from demons and had a witch do some sort of cloaking spell so that Castiel couldn't find us. 

I hadn't really left my bedroom, Lucifer had been bringing me food and fluids, apart from that he barely left my side. I might have seen glimpses of him humanity before, but these past few days he had let down all his walls.

"How're you feeling?" he asked 

"Next question" I tried to joke but didn't have the energy to smile, I felt like I was dying, but I didn't want to tell him that. He had promised to put our daughter first, but I still didn't want him to worry about me too much. 

"Is there anything else I can do?" he asked

"Lucifer you've done so much for me" I replied,

"Gracie you know I will do anything" he smiled,

"Now that you mention it" I started "I could really use a bath"

"Of course" he replied, jumping up and disappearing into the en-suite to run the bath. I barely had enough energy to move, so this was going to be interesting. One good thing about being with an angel, was that he could hear our little girls heartbeat, so if anything started to go wrong, he would know. That comforted me. He returned and sat on the edge of the bed. 

"It's filling up pretty quickly" he told me, "So I'll leave you soon to wash in private"

"Actually..." I blushed "I'm going to need some help" Lucifer swallowed hard "If that's ok?"

"Of course" he said quickly "I just wasn't expecting....."

"If you're uncomfortable I can try to manage" I interrupted, worried that I was asking too much.

"Gracie" he smiled "I can help you"

He walked round to my side of the bed and I pulled back the covers, he tucked an arms beneath my back and helped me into a sitting position as I swung my legs out of beg. With one arm around me and the other holding my hand, he helped me stand. One shaky step at a time we made it to the bathroom. 

I tried to pull my shirt over my head but I was struggling,

"Here let me" Lucifer whispered, his fingers brushed the bare skin on my arms as he lifted the shirt over my head, our eyes met the second I was free of the garment. I could have asked to click his fingers and make my clothes fall off but, I was enjoying this small level of intimacy, I hadn't had any physical contact like this for months, he'd even been sleeping on top of the covers beside me at night. 

I began to pull my pyjama pants down but couldn't reach far or bend. Lucifer fell to his knees and kissed my stomach as he slid the pants down my legs. I gasped at the contact and closed my eyes as goosebumps covered my entire body, my hand finding his hair. 

I hadn't been wearing underwear as it was uncomfortable, but he didn't look at me lustfully, in fact, his gaze hadn't fallen from my eyes the entire time.

"Thank you" I whispered, as he stood. I turned to face the bath and began to lift my leg to step in. I'd barely lifted it an inch before I felt his arms beneath me as he lifted me, I gasped and wrapped my arms around his shoulders, eyes meeting once again, this time it was my gaze that faltered, as I glanced from his eyes to his lips and back up again. 

A smirk tugged at the corner of his lips but he tried not to let it show as he lowered me into the warm water. I sighed in pleasure and closed my eyes as the water soothed my achy body, taking some of the weight off me for a while. 

"Do you want me to stay?" he whispered, I opened my eyes, he was stood watching me. I nodded, he did too and crouched beside the bath. I held out my hand, asking for his. He placed his hand in mine and I guided it to my stomach, 

"She likes bathtime" I smiled, placing his hand over the area I felt movement. Lucifer smiles and a single tear fell down his cheek. 

"What is it?" I asked confused

"Just imagining what we could have" he whispered "if we had the time"

"We have right now" I whispered, he nodded and wiped he tear with the back of his hand. 

I slid further into the water, allowing my hair to submerge. Lucifer helped me wash my hair, his strong hands so gentle as they massaged my scalp. I reached for the soap but he took it and began washing my body. The feel of his hands all over me, accompanied by his eyes locked on mine was making me feel things I didn't expect to feel for him again. The look in his eyes was one of love and respect, maybe a little lust but it wasn't the dominating element. His hand stopped on my thigh, as if he didn't know what to do. I just nodded and his hand slid between my thighs, soft and gentle, when I really wanted him to be the opposite. He didn't linger there long and I surprised us both as I whined a little when he moved away. His face turned into one of shock, mine bright red in embarrassment. Neither of us acknowledging it. 

He stood and retrieved a towel, helping me stand as he wrapped me in it. Once again he lifted me, carrying me to the bed this time. He lowered me onto the mattress but I didn't removed my arms from around his neck straight away, we both stared into each others eyes for a minute until he pulled away. 

He turned and began walking towards the door,

"Lucifer wait" I whispered, he didn't turn around but I heard him sigh and hang his head.

"Gracie we shouldn't" he whispered back,

"I know" I sighed, he turned and looked at me, I don't know what he saw in my eyes in that moment, but it was enough for him to stride back over to the bed and kiss me more passionately than he ever had. 

"We could have been so good together" he sighed 

"We are" I replied

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