"Dad," Lily greeted Lucifer at the door,
"Hello darling," he replied, I could almost hear the love in his voice. The sound of that alone made my eyes fill with tears again. Witnessing love hurt right now, no matter what form it came in.
"Would you like to come in?" Lily asked, giggling. I was so glad that we had decided to take the warding down, hearing how happy it made her to be able to invite her father into our home.
"What?" I heard Lucifer ask,
"You can come in," she giggled again.
"You took the warding down?" I heard the surprise in his voice as he appeared in the hall, his eyes meeting mine.
"Is your Mom ok?" I heard him ask from where I was sitting on the sofa, still in my pyjamas, not even having run a brush through my hair, Charlie pouring me a wine despite the early hour.
"Not really," Lily sighed. "Remind me never to fall in love."
"Gracie, what did he do?!" he growled, his eyes burning red, I looked away, I was not ready for this conversation.
"Not now, Romeo," Dean told him
"Lily," Sam sighed, she nodded
"Come on, Dad," she told him, linking his arm. "I'll tell you later," and they left.
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The next couple of days passed in a blur of wine and tears, until one morning I woke up and had, had enough of self pity, I needed to escape, I needed to do something to forget about how broken I felt. To distract me from how much I missed the love of my life.
"What are you doing?" Lily asked as she came out of her room to see me pulling on my boots and packing a bag.
"I've found a case," I told her
"You've barely got dressed in days, and now you're going on a hunt?" she asked
"I need to get out of here, Lily," I sighed
"So let's go for a walk," she exclaimed. "You're not ready for this."
"Lily," I snapped. "I'm your mother, not the other way around," instantly regretting my tone when I saw the hurt in her face.
"I'm just worried about you, that's all," she whispered
"I know, honey," I sighed, walking over to kiss her cheek. "I'm sorry,"
"At least let me come with you," she asked
"I need to do this alone," I told her. "I need to get away, I need space, I need time." she nodded in understanding
"Call me every night?" she asked
"Of course." I smiled, pulled her into a hug, and left.
For weeks.
I buried myself in case, after case, body after body. I didn't call every night. I ignored my calls. But I did text her every day to let her know I was ok.
I was grieving what I'd lost. This was my way of dealing with that loss.
I'd just got back to my motel room after another successful hunt. I opened the mini bar and slammed it shut when I remembered I'd raided it the night before.
"Wow, aggressive." his voice made me jump and reach for my gun, pointing it in his direction
"Cute," he smirked. "Shoot me, please.... it'll tickle."
"Go to hell, Lucifer," I groaned, placing my useless gun on the side table. He was sitting in the wicker chair in the corner of the room. He'd flicked on the lamp, illuminating his angelic features.
"Been there, done that," he chuckled. "Wrong boyfriend" big mistake, I retrieved my gun and shot him twice.
"Don't fucking test me" I hissed, just inferring Crowley's name was trigger enough.
"Damn" he smiled "He's really done a number on you huh"
"I'm not talking about this with you" I groaned and put my gun back down,
"A little birdie tells me you're not talking to anyone" Lucifer replied
"Why are you here Luci" I groaned
"Because I'm worried" he said seriously "your daughter is worried" the mention of Lily made me feel sick with guilt.
"How is she?" I asked, a lump in my throat
"Worried sick Gracie how do you think she's doing!" he snapped "You realise she isn't even a year old and you just upped and left her for weeks with barely a word"
"I wasn't coping" I tried to justify my action but I knew nothing could,
"That doesn't mean you get to check out of being a Mom" he shot back and before I could retaliate he continued "You've got responsibilities bigger than yourself now Grace you can't just take off"
"Screw you Luci" I yelled "I will not take parenting advise from you"
"No?" he chuckled "Because I've done a lot more parenting than you in these last 8 months"
That struck deep.
"I'm sorry that wasn't fair" he sighed, we both had so much anger towards one another that we didn't know how to channel it.
"No" I stopped him "No, you're right. I could have done better"
"Are we still talking about parenting or taste in men" he smirked, too soon. I grabbed the closest thing to me which happened to be an empty vodka bottle and launched it at him. He caught it easily.
"Is that all you've got Gracie?" he chuckled, the use of that pet name angering me more. Anything I could get my hands on I launched at him, he dodged it all effortlessly.
So in a last ditched attempt at hurting him I charged at him. He jumped to his feet and within the blink of an eye had me pinned to the wall, hands above my head.
"Maybe you should have directed some of this anger at your ex boyfriend" he chuckled
"I hate you" I hissed, struggling to free myself, knowing it was pointless
"I hate you too" he replied quickly, I was taken aback by his remark, it shouldn't have stung the way it did. His eyes scanned mine for a reaction, a reaction I was trying so hard to disguise.
His face softened and his lips twitched into a soft smile,
"What are you smiling at" I groaned, still wriggling in his grasp
"She looks like you" he whispered, I stopped struggling and met his gaze, confused at the change in subject "Lily looks like you" I shook my head.
"She might have my eyes" he agreed "But she has your fire"
"She's better than me" I sighed "She's beautiful"
"Yes she is" he agreed, the smirk making me feel uneasy, his face inching closer to mine. My breathing quickened, "Let's make another" he whispered, throwing me onto the bed.
I didn't resist as he devoured me, I hadn't realised how much I needed this. How much I missed a mans touch, the passion, the lust, the desire.
What's that saying....The best way to get over somebody is to get under someone else.....maybe I should have been more sensible with that choice of someone.
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