Crowley/Lucifer FanFiction

I miss you

Crowley didn't leave straight away either. We cuddled.

This was getting dangerous. He kissed me goodbye and told me he would back in a couple weeks maybe more.

I pined for him. I was lying to myself that it could ever be just physical with the first man I loved.

He was gone longer than 2 weeks, in that time I went on a few hunts with the boys and when I got home, I comfort ate to distract myself from how empty my apartment felt, putting on a little weight. 

We met a girl called Charlie, she was cool, and quickly became one of us. She was staying with the boys in the bunker.

I felt a little pushed out, I had always been their little sister, the techy one, but she was way better with computers than me and the boys were just as protective over her.

We were on a hunt when I got ill, I was throwing up everyday and just felt really lethargic and achy.

Sam and Dean were worried, they asked me to stay with them at the bunker but I promised I'd be fine.

Another week passed, Crowley still hadn't come back and I was still throwing up.

Charlie let herself in to my apartment one morning when I was being sick.

She had a key, they all did now that we were back on track.

"You're still sick?" She asked, startling me, I was sat on the bathroom floor by the toilet. I had told Sam and Dean I was better so they wouldn't worry.

"The nausea comes in waves" I told her, "I'm fine really" she raised an eyebrow. "Please don't tell Sam and Dean" I begged,

"I wont" she promised, "but I'm gonna nip to the shop, do you need anything"

I asked her to grab me some milk and Swedish fish, I'd been craving them something rotten.

I finished up in the bathroom and settled down on the sofa with my laptop to look for cases.

Charlie reappeared half an hour later with a bag of stuff. I was not expecting what she pulled from the bag.

I laughed at her when she held the box out to me.

"Charlie I'm not pregnant!" I exclaimed,

"You sure about that" she asked "you've been feeling nauseous, lethargic, you've gained weight and now you tell me you're having cravings" I felt the colour drain out of me.

"I can't be" I gasped

"Go pee" she demanded, I took the box from her and sat on the toilet staring at it. "You alright in there?" She asked, knocking on the door, I'd been just sat staring at the box for a good 10 minutes.

"Yeah I'm just building myself up to it" I called back.

Eventually I opened the packet and followed the instructions, it wasn't as easy as people make it look on TV, but I managed.

I placed it on the bathroom sink and opened the bathroom door.

"3 minutes" Charlie said, I paced the hallway whilst Charlie watched the clock. It was the longest 3 minutes of my life.

"Grace" she whispered "That's time" I felt sick.

"I can't look" I told her, running my hands through my hair "will you?"

She disappeared into the bathroom and came out holding the test.

"Well?" I asked

"You're pregnant Grace" she told me, not sure whether she was allowed to be excited or not.

"I am?" I asked, not sure how I felt about it either. My legs gave way beneath me and I sat cross legged in the middle of the hallway, Charlie sat down opposite me.

"Are you happy?" She asked

"I don't know" I replied, looking down at my stomach as I ran a hand over it.

"I take it you know who the dad is?" Charlie asked, I nodded

"I've only been sleeping with one person" I replied,

"Maybe you should come to the bunker so we can look after you?" Charlie asked

"I don't want the boys to know yet" I replied quickly,  "the dad should know first" Charlie nodded "I'm safe here anyway"

"Do you want me to stay here then?" She asked,

"Would you?" I asked

"Of course" she smiled "I'll grab some things from my room and come back tonight?"

"Thanks Charlie" I smiled "I didn't realise I needed a sister until this moment"

"You've got one" she smiled back, shuffling across the floor to hug me. "I'll be back soon" she promised.

I chilled out the rest of the afternoon, watching trashy TV and consuming a disgusting amount of Swedish fish.

I knew Charlie would be back soon so I decided to take a shower so it didn't look like I'd been a slob all day.

I was just taking my shirt off when the hairs on the back of my neck stood on end and I felt his hands on my bare skin.

"Hey baby" he whispered as I melted into his embrace

"Hey" I beamed, turning round to hug him, "That was a long couple of weeks" it had been closer to a month.

"I know" he sighed "did you miss me?"

"I didn't allow myself to miss you" I whispered "just sex remember"

"About that" he sighed, kissing me softly "I really, really missed you"

"You did?" I squealed

"Mmm hmmm" he purred, kissing my bare shoulder and up my neck until his lips stopped over my ear "and not just for sex" he pulled back a little so he could assess my reaction to his confession.

"Crowley" I blushed

"I'm hopelessly in love with you Grace" he blushed, unable to meet my gaze.

"I never stopped loving you" I tell him and he kisses me like its the first time. The kiss gets passionate quickly and I have to pull away before I can't stop.

"What's wrong?" He asked

"Nothing" I replied catching my breath "there's something I need to tell you"

He sits down on my bed looking worried. I'm nervous, unsure how he will react. I'm not sure I can formulate the words so instead I rush to the bathroom and come back with the pregnancy test, handing it to him.

He glances down at it, I can't read his expression

He balls his hand into a fist around the test and crushes it into several pieces.

I'm confused, I thought he'd be excited like I am.

"You did more than kiss him didn't you" he whispered still lookong down at his fist, so quietly I barely hear him "didn't you?" he yells