Jihan || Oneshots

my angel

10.04.17

It's been a month since you left me hannie.
You were supposed to turn twenty-two today.

Why did you have to leave us this early? Everything in seventeen has been falling apart.

I'll tell you something about the members. Like how they acted when you were gone.

Did you know that seungcheol actually liked you? He was broken when he found out that you committed suicide. Since our leader is broken and sad, no one is in charge of the other members. All cheol does is stay in his room and cry.

For me, I cried too. I wanted to die with you. But I couldn't because carats would be even sadder. You wouldn't want them like that.

Jun is on the stage of acceptance. He accepted the fact that you're actually gone. He always tries to brighten the atmosphere but it doesn't work.

You'll be worried about hoshi by a lot when you here how he is right now.

Hoshi stopped doing his horanghae agenda. I've never seen him once do horanghae since you left. He threw all his tiger plushies away. You were the only one who never teased him about it. He said tigers reminded him of you. That's why he threw them away.

Wonwoo is also on the stage of acceptance. He became happier. We were all happy for him since we thought he would be the person that wouldn't accept the information.

Woozi doesn't write songs anymore. He makes bumzu do it. He became cold. He never talked to anyone except hoshi.

Minghao. Minghao changed a lot. The whole 97line changed a lot.

The once happy and cheerful eisa that you knew is now gone. He startes wearing simpler clothes that were in dark colors. He didn't wear those unique outfits like before. He doesn't talk to us anymore.

Mingyu is okay-ish. He's not like minghao who is really sad about your death bjt he also is like jun who accepted it. He's right in the middle.

Dokyeom is not cheerful anymore. The person who would always have a smile on his face is gone. He sometimes would have a smile but it only happened when the members did something funny, which was almost never.

Seungkwan misses you. He wished you never died. Everyone does. He wants you to be there and comfort them, play with them, and take care of them.

Vernon is vernon. He doesn't show hid emotions so we don't know if he's sad or accepting it.

You know how Dino always hated it when you did "dino nugu aegi?" Well now, he wants it to come back. Pretty surprising.

Getting over your death is hard for everyone. Especially carats. I saw on weverse and twitter some posts about it. They hated the fact that you died.

12.30.15

It's supposed to be my twenty-second birthday today! I'm happy but also sad. I was gonna confess to you on new year's since it would be a new year but you didn't make it.

I wish told you sooner how I felt. Maybe you would've rejected me? Or maybe you would feel the same way about me? Who knows?

I got lots of gifts earlier. But there's this one specific thing I wanted. So I wished for it.

'I wish for Jeonghan to come back.'

That's my only wish. I wish it could come true but I know it won't.

Hopefully you're doing great wherever you are right now.

01.01.18

Everyone kissed there significant other last night.

Cheol kissed chan, Jun kissed minghao, hoshi kisses woozi, mingyu kisses wonwoo, dokyeom kissed seungkwan.

Me and vernon were the only lonely ones. Since we had no one we decided to kiss each other.

It was the most boring new year's party ever. No one tried to do anything but watch on there phone.

The connection of the members are gone. We used to be a synchronized group who had a really great relationship with each other.

Now, we're a group who feels like the other members are strangers.

01.16.18

The relationship of the members got better. We recently just went to go bowling for seungkwan's birthday.

That was the first time we actually had fun in a while.

We hoped that it would continue to be like that. Everyone knew that it wouldn't. We still had faith that it would change though.

Faith? We actually had faith now. We never had faith that it would change before. I guess we changed too.

02.18.18

It was dokyeom's twenty-first birthday and vernon's twentieth birthday.

We went to a place where we filmed a show called gose. It stands for 'Going Seventeen'.

I wish that you were there to witness it. We had so much fun.

At night, we played people's favorite games.

Dokyeom made a random spider man game. No one knew how to play.

We did karaoke and went to bed.

08.08.18

It's cheol's birthday today. He was really sad that you couldn't be there.

When it was time to make a wish he looked sad.

He then decided to make one.

If I had to guess what he wished it would probably be for you to come back.

Everyone would like that. Carats still haven't gotten over your death.

Each day I go into weverse and see comments saying they miss jeonghan.

No one would have thought that this is how you would end up.

12.30.18

I'm turning twenty three today! I wish you could be here to witness it.

Remember in our training days when I said," it will be surprising if I reach 23 knowing that I have reason for living" ?

I made it. I bet you're proud of me.

You were once the angel of the group.

Now you're my angel who guides me from above.

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I don't think this is good but here you go!