Jihan || Oneshots

scars

jeonghan and joshua were laying down on their bed. jeonghan on top of joshua, comfortably laying on him. the younger was playing with jeonghan's hair when he saw something.

jeonghan's sleeve lifted up when he moves his body, revealing his scars from when he still did self harm. those were years ago, when they were still in high school, years before he met the love of his life, joshua hong.

"hannie...your scars..." joshua became silent. jeonghan then quickly pulled his sleeve to cover it up. "sorry if it's disturbing you shua!" he held it so the sleeve wouldn't rise up again.

joshua pulled jeonghan's hand away from his sleeve, lifting it up, revealing his past scars on his arm. he started caressing them. "shua..."

joshua got up, gently placing jeonghan to lay on there bed. he got over the older, holding his arm. he started to kiss each scar, not missing a single one. he then scanned jeonghan's body.

joshua started to slowly pull of jeonghan's hoodie, letting the older know that he can tell him to stop if he's uncomfortable.

the younger put it at the side, pouting as he saw all the scars on the older's body. he started to kiss them, like he did on his arm, not missing one. he made sure to caress the scar before and after he kissed it.

when he was done with all the scars, he put the hoodie back on jeonghan. when he went to lay back down with the older, he saw that there were tears running down jeonghan's face.

"hannie, why are you crying? did i do something wrong? did you not want me to do that? you could've told me to stop if you didn't feel comfortable with it. i'm sorry hannie!" jeonghan wiped his tears.

"no, it's not that. it's just...i didn't expect you to act like that once you saw my scars. i've told you about them a few times, but i've never showed you. i thought you would hate me once you saw how many i actually had. i just feel really happy that you don't hate me for having them."

"baby, i would never hate you for doing self harm. i would be worried, but never hate you. i know that you weren't in the best place that time. that's why i'm here, to help you be in a better place. to make you happy, that's my job as your boyfriend, not making you feel guilty and bad about something you did in the past. i would never ever do that to you. i will always be here to help you accept your scars and feel comfortable." he kissed the older's cheek.

"and shua, i think i might have a scar on my lips to..." jeonghan looked at the younger, who just smiled. "well, i guess i'll do what i did to all the other ones." he gently grabbed the older's face, and pulled him in for a kiss.

"thank you joshuji...i love you so much! you've always tried your best to make me happy. you're the best boyfriend i could ever ask for. sorry if i make you mad or annoyed at times."

"it's fine hannie, all i need to know is that you're happy, then i'm happy."