Jihan || Oneshots

why did you save me

Jeonghan Pov

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me and joshua were laying down together in bed. i was sitting on his lap, my head on his chest while he was on his phone, stroking his fingers in my hair.

i looked over to see what he was doing on his phone, he was scrolling through some quotes.

'it doesn't matter who you used to be, what matter is who you're becoming.'

'the past is behind, learn from it. the future is ahead, prepare for it. the present is here, live it."

'if you are depressed, you are living in the past. if you are anxious, you are living in the future. if you are at peace, you are living in the present.'

it reminded me of my past self, my whole past. it felt horrible to think about it. at least i met shua.

there was this question i've always wanted to ask him. i never did since i was nervous to and since i don't know if he'll answer it. i was planning to do it later but i'll do it now. i have nothing to lose anyways.

"shua?"

"yes hannie?"

"can i ask you something?"

"sure what is it?"

"why did you save me that day? why didn't you just leave me alone, like everyone else did?"

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Flashback

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Jeonghan Pov

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the cherry blossoms look as beautiful as ever today. walking in this path with cherry blossoms in each side is peaceful. the pink flowers are the best sight to see before i leave.

i went to the bridge, my favorite place to go to.

it's beautiful, the water flowing, it's calming and peaceful to watch. too bad that's not what i was here for.

i was on the ledge of the bridge, holding it tightly, watching the water flow before i let go.

i don't see any point of living anymore. what's the point of going on? the world is just full of heartache and pain. there's nothing left for me to live for.

why can't there be anyone there for me? to help me, comfort me? it's not fair! almost everyone has someone in there life that's special to them, but me, i have no one, they're all gone.

i can't stand being alone anymore! the pain is too much to bear. no one understands me anymore.

life isn't worth living. i'm useless, a failure, nobody understands me. all i wished before was to die. now, my wish will come true.

i watched a flower fall on the water, beautiful. i wish i'll have peace in the after life.

i was about to let go when i heard someone shout. "stop! don't do it! don't let go!"

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Joshua Pov

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i was taking a walk at my favorite place. the cherry blossoms always comforted me, the color of it was just calming, that's why i loved looking at them.

i was about to reach the bridge when i saw someone, they were gonna jump. "stop! don't do it! don't let go!" i can't let him jump. i ran to him as quick as i can, helping him onto the bridge.

"what were you thinking? why were you gonna jump?" i can't let someone die, not in front of me, i can't let them do that.

"why did you stop me! i finally would've been able to live my life in peace. the pain would've finally stopped, after years of enduring it. why didn't you let me go!?" the guy cried out.

"i'm not letting anyone die. no one deserves to die like this. i'm sorry that you had to have a horrible life before, but please, you can't give up now. i promise you, there are still things in the world that are fun."

"i can't. i need it to be gone. my friend died a few weeks ago on this very bridge, my heart feels like it's just been ripped out. he was the only one who understood me. it's not fair. he was a good person, but got bullied for being mixed. he had enough of it and decided to rest. how can i live without him?"
he continued to cry into my arms. i hugged him, rubbing circles on his back.

"i'm sorry that happened to you. but you can't leave now. you have to live, live for your friend. live a life you won't regret, one you'll be happy with. he would be happy to know that you didn't end up like him."

"i don't have anywhere else to stay. no one's there for me. i'm all alone."

"stay at my place then. i have a big house, you can stay there for as long as you want. if you don't want to leave in the future, you don't have to. as long as you don't do this again."

"really?" i nodded.

"thank you! i'll try not to do it again but, it'll be hard."

"it's fine. i know trying is stop is hard. i'm not forcing you to continue living. just stay for a few months, if you don't like it, do what you wish." i can't force him tk live, but i'll try to show him what's good about it.

"what's your name?" i asked him. "jeonghan, i'm yoon jeonghan." pretty name. "call me joshua or jisoo. my names joshua hong." he nodded.

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3rd Person Pov

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it has been a few months since jeonghan tried to commit suicide, and since he's moved in with joshua.

joshua made his life brighter. he loved how cute the younger would act sometimes. the one thing that he really loved about the younger was his eye smile. he found it cute how deer like shua looked.

for joshua, he loved having jeonghan with him. the older was clingy to him, but he loved it.

joshua grew feelings for the older during those few months. he wanted to ask him to be his boyfriend before but didn't have the courage. today, he finally had the courage to ask him.

they were at the beach, jeonghan's favorite place. it was while they were laying down that joshua decided to ask him. to the younger's surprise, the older said yes. it was surprising for shua but he was happy.

they shared a kiss and cuddled with each other.

that's how jeonghan's miserable life, turned brighter.

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Present

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Joshua Pov

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"i saved you because i knew how you felt. i tried committing suicide before, as well as my best friend too. someone saved me, i was forever thankful to that guy. unfortunately, my friend didn't get saved. after that event, i promised myself to help anyone i see who tries to do it."

"if you don't mind me asking, what was your friend's name?" i wonder why he wants to know.

"it was chwe hansol. why?" he looked shockrd, tears falling out of his eyes. "that was my best friend too!" he cried out.

i never knew that. i engulfed him in a hug, rubbing circles on his back.

vernon, did you plan this? your two best friends meeting after you died?

i'm sorry hansol! i wasn't there to protect you when you were getting bullied. please forgive me.

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not sure if it's good.