Jihan || Oneshots

i don't even know you anymore (2)

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Jeonghan Pov

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why does he keep on hanging out with them? it's not like they were the ones who was with him when his mom died, dog, and all the other events that hurt him. i was the one that was there for him, comforting him, helping him get through the pain, but he doesn't even talk to me anymore.

why can't he at least tell me if our friendship is over so i don't have to keep hurting. i wish he was still talking to me, or at least waving at me or giving me a note, like before, but he doesn't. all he does is walk straight past me.

should i ask him if we're still friends? his answers would probably be, no. i think i won't do it. i won't risk it, i'm not risking my heart getting shattered again.

i guess, all i can do is watch him now, having fun with people other than me. i might sound toxic since i don't want him hanging out with them, but do i really seem that toxic?

i'll just think of our old memories, the ones where i was happy. there was one time where we were at the beach. there was this wall where we could sit at, and we did sit there. we watched the sunset, and the beautiful waves flowing. that's memory i can't forget.

there was another time where...where..
before i could think of that moment, i went straight to the bathroom, quickly going in one of the stalls. i couldn't hold my tears, those moments were precious to me, thinking of them used to make me happy, now it just made me feel sad.

i was crying in the stall, my teal shirt wet from the rapid tears flowing down my face, eyes are red from the tears and my hands rubbing them. it wouldn't stop, no matter how hard i tried, it just kept going and going.

"hey are you okay?" i looked up to the source of the voice, it was choi seungcheol, the popular kid. "yeah kinda," it's true, i'm okay but also not okay. "what happened do you mind telling me?"

"no, not at all. it's just, mu bestfriend started hanging out with new people and he forgot about me. he never talks to me anymore. before, we would do almost everything together now, we do nothing together." tears were still flowing out of my face, he handed me a tissue.

"do you mind telling me who your bestfriend is?" i shook my head. "it's joshua, joshua hong." he gave me a shocked look. "i'm sorry!"

"what for?" why does he have to be sorry. he didn't do anything wrong. "i'm sorry for being the reason your's and joshua's friendship fell apart. he never told us he had a bestfriend. not once did he mention you. again, i'm sorry." he's actually nicer than he looks. he looks like he's in a gang from all those dark colors that he wears.

"it's fine, really. you don't have to be sorry, you knew nothing about our friendship, you didn't make it worse. he decided to hang out with you, it was him, he made it break. don't think that you ruined it."

"i still feel bad. i can help you get your friendship back with him." when my ears heard, friendship back with him, it immediately listened. "i don't know if it will work, but i can try. i'll talk to him about this. i'll tell him to talk with his other friends or talk to you."

"thank you seungcheol, i really appreciate you doing this!" i do, since i was to much of a coward to do it myself. "it's not much, but i hope you'll accept this as my apology. i know you said to stop worrying and it's not my fault. i just can't." he seems like a softie on the inside.

"it's fine. think of it as you like." he gave me a smile before leaving. maybe i will get joshua back as my friend, or maybe it won't work and he'll continue to ignore me. whatever happens i'll be grateful to seungcheol, he tried to do it.

joshua, i hope you'll actually talk to me!

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it's a short chapter but it's a part 2 for my other story.