Jihan || Oneshots

family photo

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Jeonghan Pov

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i was looking at my photo that included my family. it had my husband, me, and our kid. tears, we're starting to fall down my eyes as i remembered what happened.

"you're looking at it again, baby?" my husband, joshua, asked me, heading over to the couch, where i was sitting at.

"yeah. i still keep wondering on what could've happened if that accident didn't happen."

about three years ago, me and joshua were driving back to our house, with our two year old baby, chan, at the back. we were just at my parent's house to visit them.

while we were heading home, there was a man that hit our car. he was going pretty fast and ended up making the car flip over.

luckily, me and jeonghan weren't hurt, only a few scratches from the glass, but for chan, he had pieces of the window through his body, his head was bleeding.

people who saw the incident called an ambulance, but when they got there, chan wasn't breathing. his pulse stopped.

that was the most tragic event of our life. especially since he was only two. he could've been five today, it was his birthday too.

"i hope you don't blame yourself hannie, we couldn't do anything about it." he hugged me, trying to make me feel better. it did help a little since he gave warm hugs.

"but what if we stayed at my parents house for a few more minutes? what if left earlier? there were so many things we could've done to avoid the accident, but all we did was go straight home." tears were falling out of my eyes, like a waterfall.

"he was only two shua, two! he was young, he didn't deserve that, yet it still happened. why couldn't have been me instead? i have done things in life that i regret. why wasn't i the one who died?" i cried onto the chest of joshua, making his shirt soaking wet.

"baby, don't say that! you don't deserve to die, nor did chan. we can't always control everything. in life, good things happen that can lead you to true happiness, like giving birth to the beautiful boy. and bad, tragic things can happen, like that. it's hard to accept it, but we have too."

"but it's so hard shua! i can't just accept that he's gone, eventhough it's been three years, i still can't accept it!"

"i'm not making you. take your time, everyone has their own pace in healing. i just want you to know that it'll all be okay!" he kissed me on the cheek. "when you feel sad again, please tell me. i want to be there, to comfort you." i nodded my head.

"remember, it's not your fault, baby!"

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