Hopeful,
Hopelessly devoted
To some kind of love
I've kept dreaming of
Since I was sixteen.
I never had the chance to get to know it
Until your hand surrounded my waist,
That was the first time we met
And all I knew from there is everything changed.
Unexpectedly,
I found myself expecting you
To give me something more
Than just sleepless nights
And our everlasting chats
About my subtle fantasies.
You didn't say you were looking something else
And I was the wrong person for the things you wanted
That was the 13th night of July
After that, all I remember is me crying all the way back home.
My expectations were far too high.
Still I waited,
What an unbeknownst future will hold
Watched the movie you used to talk a lot
Listened to the songs you like the most
Held on the night you whispered I was yours
But the truth was knocking doors
And apparently, it was my turn
It was the fate telling me to move on and get over it
It seems like you already did it
How can I forget you when I didn't even want to love you?
So I pace silently the halls you once walked holding my hand
Hoping someday I found you unexpectedly around
And I keep reaping all the words you spitted on my ground
Expecting someday it grows a hopeful garden
Even though I know it's just a mere of wasting time
Waiting right where I first told you I like you under that starry night.
I unconsciously do it, even if it seems otherwise.
