I'm sitting on a bench at somewhere place.
I'm kind of bummed and getting drunk on pain.
You never tried a little bit,
You never cared that much of it.
All that you did was lying to me
As I was falling into deeply.
I cursed your name in the middle of night,
In front of the mirror, hating all your surrealistic lies.
You never did your best,
Said you never expected what came next.
All that you did was fooling me
And I did believe in that flawless perfectly made-up speech about affective responsibility.
Because
You didn't see me cry all the way home
Sitting on the window's side
Listening to that fucking song
That unfortunately relates to you.
You didn't see me stumble over the pages
Of the book I started writing
About the new beginnings coming in ages
And the poetry I got inspired from you.
Everyone saw you holding me tight.
Everyone thought that you would love me right.
Everyone's told so many lies, so many times.
Everyone saw me crossing the lines.
Everyone watched me holding on to you that night.
Nobody knew you'd lie, I'm still surprised.
I'm sitting on a bench at some place somewhere,
I'm crying my heart out in front of everyone who saw me there.
You will be with your friends getting drunk at some place,
You will be better and happier pretending like we're ok.
I just came home and watched that movie you talked a lot.
I got mad because you said we were alike.
You never tried to understand what I was feeling
But still you said those things that Saturday night in the dark.
Now I'm just watching at nothing
While I'm thinking how could I let you in.
Now I'm dressed in black,
But you will never know as you never knew my heart.
