Tulips

9. Small World.

Becky.

It felt like I snapped back from a trance. I suddenly thought what am I doing? I ran away from her out of the club and found a taxi.

I was staring into nothing, slowly touching my lips. She kissed me. I did resisted when she did that but not for long. I gave in and... And even responded. When she kissed me it felt familiar. I did remember her kissing me that night but that's all.

But now... Her lips moving against mine felt... It felt good... It felt so right, that our lips are perfectly molded to move against each other.

Why? Why am I letting her do that? Why is it when I stare at her I get lost in a trance? Why is my body reacting this way to her?

I didn't have any tendencies before, that I'll like girls. I see nothing wrong with it when Irin fell for Noey. But for it to happen to me was... Surprising. Unexpected.

I arrived home. I went straight to the refrigerator getting myself a glass of cold water to drown the heat I felt. I drank the whole glass yet it felt the same. I quickly went upstairs, stripped and headed straight to the shower. I let the cold water run through my body. I shiver through it yet I kept on. I closed my eyes as I let it drip on my face.

Her face pops up on my minds eye. Her face so close and soon her lips reached mine. With just that, despite the cold water, it brought the heat up a notch.

Her kiss made me remember that night. I remembered her on top of me kissing me from my lips moving downwards. My neck, my chest, she sucked my...

Oh shit. I feel wetness building up between my legs. No! I shook my head and opened my eyes. Stop it Becca! Stop thinking about her.

I washed up even down there then dry myself up. I went to my room and sat at my bed. I need something to occupy my mind. I went downstairs, took the ice cream out of the fridge and got myself a spoon. I went back to my room, turn the tv on. It took me 20 minutes to choose a movie and ended selecting "The Proposal" to watch.

It worked. I was laughing at a certain scene but later on crying on another. When the movie ended I took the ice cream tub downstairs then went back to my room. I somehow felt sleepy so I lay down and soon fell asleep.

The next day, I made myself busy with work. Today was a wedding of a client so I closed the shop. I was putting the flower pots inside the van when I heard someone spoke behind me.

"Let me help you."

Then a hand appeared on my right side putting down two of the flower pots.

"Thanks." I said smiling as I turn to my right.

Shock went through me as I wasn't expecting to see her again.

"I guess this will make no sense anymore. Still... Here..." I was surprised when she handed me a bouquet of camellia. This flower means longing for that person. I put it down on the van and murmured a thank you then went to the door and took two flower pots.

"You ran away from me last night." Freen said following me. Then went in front of me blocking my way.

No. She shouldn't be here. I was trying to forget her. I went around her and put flower pots on the van.

"I'm sorry. I'm busy. I don't have time for..." I didn't get to finish for she held my arm and pulled me to her.

"Why did you ran?"

This surprised me luckily I don't have any flower pot on my hand. She stared at me. Oh no, not those eyes again. I get lost whenever she looks at me. So I averted my eyes somewhere and slowly pull my arm off her.