There is this feeling inside,
A feeling I cannot really describe.
It's neither uncomfortable nor comfortable in a way.
Like a feeling that is messing with my head.
For the first time in my life I found a person that is a lot like me.
I would love to talk to them for hours or just cuddle and talk into the night.
When I look at the sky at night I wonder if that is the change I have wished for.
Change is starting to live your life on your own believes.
I never thought that life could be so peaceful in a way I had never enjoyed it before.
I start to feel grounded.
It's like a few weights were lifted up on my fragile heart.
For the first time I didn't had to show myself because no one was looking.
For the first time in my life I was found.
I was not called anything in my life.
It's the way words touched my heart that I feel it like small waves after you threw a rock into a lake.
For the first time I am willing to put my front down.
I am willing to share my thoughts and my heart.
All that time I longed, begged and preached for being found I never dreamed of it being a change.
To start from always showing and masking to being just me is hard.
But I will change.
Even when I don't know who I am anymore It's okay in a way.
Now it is my time to find myself.
A bit of courage can change life.
Not once was I that honored to meet a person like her.
Please hold me tight.
Please don't leave me
Please, just please don't see me as a burden.
Not once in my life was I so scared of change.
Not once in my life was I so scared of saying a wrong word, a wrong sentence, even a wrong letter.
Not once in my life was I so scared of not being enough.
Of not being worthy enough.
And with a few words you gave me the feeling of being worthy enough
To deserve real love and not what I have been shown my whole life.
The first person to tell me that I am actually really damn cute and that I caught your eyes since day one.
Like for you it may have been flirting but for me this simple words were like sun rays that started to crack through my walls.
You created a hole in a wall that I never wanted to be torn down.
I told you things I never told a soul.
I have the feeling to be able to break down this wall.
I am anxious that I will never be enough and that you start to see me the way I see myself.
Being found and being touched by a gentle sunray was the last thing I would have hoped for.
Please stay by my side
I don't care in which way, but please stay and don't leave me
