When I look into the sky all I see is grey clouds
Hanging softly over every house
The rain falling endless for days
But how do I find the word which says
Will you fall for me ever.
I think it may be not the case
I will be the only one who will chase
But you will not know, today and never
I will admire you from afar
The breaking of my inner jar
Hoping for your happiness
Enough of this sappiness
I want you
But how would someone want me too
Look at me, a total mess
Doesn't mean I want anything less
I know that I will never will inspiration for anybody like other people are
I will sit silently and watch you talk
Enjoying every short walk
But you are not for me
That is what I am trying to see
Even then I want to be yours
A passage in a chorus
But I am the reprise
Just the comedic relief
I fallen for you like rain on the ground
Love your every so little sound
It's strange how you make me feel
Giving so much glee
One look at you and clouds are lifting
Emotions began shifting
A curtain that falls
Every time your voice calls
I want to write a song that is equal to your worth
But no song could compare to being worthy enough for you.
As the rain fell, the tears fell slowly
Afraid to tell you what I feel
I know you are gentle
But I am not really mental
Would you choose me out of all
I don't think so in any way.
You are too good
Me too bad
I will be too sad
You will try, you will give up eventually
It is all so naturally
Me being so typical me
Nobody wants to see
Admiring you from a distance
Wishing secretly for stolen kisses
But wishes it will always be
A never fulfilling dream
You so gentle, so kind it seems
A person that doesn't flee
You look through my soul
My pen in an rapid flow
Your eyes they comfort
Without even have spoken a word
Your presence lights up the sky
Behind that clouds that rain had to hide
The rain falls, it gets silent
My thoughts rather being self-violent
But even then you cross my mind
My world suddenly begins to shine
It's sad I will never have a chance
Not a chance to hold those rough looking hands who play music so softly
Not a chance to hug you longer than friends would normally do.
Not a chance to be more than I am
Now I wish to be transparent
Let you look right through me
Like you never even quite knew me
But turning back is not fine
Not fair to myself and more than that to you.
Going back on words is not my style
I am not one of this kind.
I find myself looking at things you admire
Maybe to still my lasting desire
Ignoring my heads louds singing choir
But rest assured that I tell
I wish you pretty well
"Not for me" I will whisper
Still aching to know if you would be a good kisser
But those rough hands will not touch me I think
A heart that began to sink
Ever wondering if I could too
Be in your heart for a minute or two
Do you maybe love me and won't tell
A information that you won't sell
So valuable a minute or two
Me being without a clue
Am I enough to inspire
To be inspiration for a choir
To be worthy of a song
Or maybe also a place to belong
Not answered it will be
But maybe someday I will see
You holding my hand
Walking barefoot on warm sand
Looking at the sky, laughing quietly
A laugh so ever impolitey
But think of you makes me mad
That you loving someone else makes me sad
But go, be free
I will look at you still with glee
Maybe one day I will be at the rainy sea
Not by only hurting me
