Candid Heartstrings

Burrying And Escaping Yourself

Avoiding yourself, avoiding the truth

Running away as fast as you could

Silent screams inside that you're unaware of

A distorted separation from yourself

All because you tried

All because you tried to understand even when you're supposed to be happy

All because you wanted to be good, they overabsorbed with selfishness

All because you care, you stood different from others

All because you were a innocent child, who became an adult

Because they wanted you to, all because you were good you tried to

All it leads to is fear of yourself

A constant need to run

A constant need to escape from yourself

A fear of feeling emotions, thoughts inside your head

Because you didnt want to feel bad thinking ill about others

You closed the gates inside yourself

Made walls that couldn't crumble

You became unaware of your feelings

They suppressed the frustration and sorrow you had

And you suppressed it deep inside you

So that you won't feel it, won't think and won't end up hurting them

You tried creating yourself by burying yourself

All of it during the innocent years

And moved on, ignorant

Years later, you struggle with yourself

Forgot how things were, what you did

Unaware of your struggles, late night screams and cries, the thought of being unwanted

But you felt it, didn't you?

So confused, anguished and scared

Not even knowing why

You slowly tried to unviel the past

Searching why

Afraid of what it might held

The pain you felt but never did

You know what you are now.... right?

A perfect smile, a person feeling happiness

But the eyes held sorrow, a mute voice inside

A search for yourself

But yet

Escape from yourself