Candid Heartstrings

For My love, My life

There are many things that came as unexpected in our lives. They're some wishes that we thought were wishful thinking and that it wouldn't happen, but it did.

I always wanted a little brother since childhood. I'm used to being alone and sometimes I wished that I could share my problems with someone and not only that, but be strong for someone.

If you look at two siblings, one on the swing and another pushing it, which one do you want to be?

I wanted to be the one pushing the swing.

The feeling of having a little brother, looking after them and scolding them, hugging them and ruffling their hair. Having them look up to you during situations that are dire....
It was better than going through that alone.

I am used to playing alone and the only friends that never left my side would probably be
Tv, dogs, and balls 🥎
Oh and walls
And my own voice

So yeah
And I used to be a weird one as a kid. Didn't know how to socialise and I'm sure the ones who were with me, found me strange and a creepy kid too. I mean my bestfriend from back then, her parents used to think that too.

And lol, all the dogs in the place where I live? I was friends with them. But since I was so annoying, their owner would change the route the moment they saw me 😝

Anyways
I had been wishing for a sibling for exactly 14 years and he came when I finally gave up on the most unrealistic faintest of hope of being an elder sister.

You came in my world
As a blossom of hope
Which has rosy cheeks
And a cute smile

You hear what I say
Even in places no one can hear
You hear my thoughts
That I want you to know

You're a wish come true
From birth I wanted you
You're my only true happiness
I'm glad it's time for reunion

You are my strength
You are my weakness
You are my love
You are my life

You have been on my mind
When I heard about you
The smile never left my face
Since then I'm waiting for you to arrive

I'll be there for you
When you need me
Right now I need you to come to me
So we can cuddle cutely

I know that this might sound selfish
But I want me to be the reason you smile
I want to be the shoulder you can cry on
I want to be someone worthy to have you

Because you'll be the reason
Of me and my happiness
Of me and my possessiveness
Of me and you

No matter where we are
My love for you will never fade away
No matter what the circumstances will be
I'll always want you and I'll always love you

For my brother ❤️
When I was 14 and he wasn't even born. So I wrote it for him, thinking about him.

And funny fact. The lines which say that "in place no one can hear." I was talking to him in mother's womb and I said something about giving me a sign that you're listening. He kicked. And I was so so so so happy

And fun fact
My mom didn't know she was pregnant. And when she did
Guess the age of my baby brother in her womb?