Candid Heartstrings

💔Missing The Goners 💔 The First ever friend I confided in

here are mindless scribblings

To one of the best person i could have asked for

Hey Didi

You'll forever have a place in my heart and memories. You were the first person I ever confided in. And later, after many years I confided in ash. But nvm who he is, doesn't matter rn

What matters rn is

You...

I remember staring at the stars with you, imagining spaceships and aliens, annoying your elder brother. You were always the first one who I wanted to come to whenever I feel like crying, and come to your comforting hugs and hushes to make me stop crying, those pats on the head, those reasonable attitude, that caring and mature side, yet filled with childishness and stupidity that's reserved for some people.

There is no doubt you forgot me

But i still remember you, your voice, and how you used to listen to my problems, so patiently, and not saying about them. You use to point at the stars that shined above us.

I remember coming to your home always uninvited, you are a year older to me. AND MAN HOW IN THE WORLD DO I REMEMBER YOUR BROTHER'S FACE!? well we sure loved to annoy him didnt we?

I really really wish I could meet you

But i dont think i can handle the pain of the fact that you have forgotten me. I met u last 12 years ago.

I miss you and sharing my problems with you, your hugs and comfort. I am not a hugger but... when i cry... i would love to have my head buried in your belly (LOLOL) and cry while you would say nothing but put a hand on my head, patting it and soothing me. Your voice was a sweet melody to my heart.

Now that I have grown, you probably didnt like me back then. I was another burden to you, who would cling along.

But.

You never shooed me away. I love you  for that and i desperately wanna see you.
I imagine talking to you.... but as strangers,... and I cried so bad....

You probably stuck around with me cause of pity on my problems. you were the first who i confided it with my house problems, of how many times I was unfairly beaten up, how many times i saw my parents threatening each other....

I really really need your comfort....

For nothing happened except
I miss you with all my heart. All my heart....

I think i can bear the pain of you forgetting me, if i get a chance to meet you, hug you, become friends with you, make random picnics on random days.....

I would never give up the hope of meeting you again.... I really wish I could....
You're everything to me.
You were the very beginning of my "people who mean everything to me list"
And i can never ever forget you and how you always were kind to me. I remember seeing you crying once... and i hugged u while u ranted...

I miss you
And I hope
You'll remember me someday
Cause honestly, there isnt a month that i didnt missed you, bhumika and arnav
Love you alot Aditi didi

Yours
Aaru