Date: 2nd June 2015
Time: 7:36am
Ugh what happened last night is still affecting me...I just wish I could've saved him. And I didn't wake up to happiness either. Turns out that the people that know about It, all hate me. They keep saying they would help me but then they're rude to me and say that I'm the bad guy...
I just told you to shut up and leave me alone, that's all.
Plus I didn't do any homework so I'm fucked. I'll try and fit it in during break. Don't want to hear my maths teacher screaming again. Or my English teacher interrogating me.
Anyways off to school....
AND WITHIN THE FIRST FEW MINUTES I GET AN INJURY. A guitar fell on my right hand so I can't use both hands now.
Anyways our maths teacher was surprisingly nice. Well only cause teachers were observing the lesson and he wanted to keep his job. The teachers leave? He does a sigh of relief then starts screaming.
Teachers these days...
When I got home I told my mum about what happened and she didn't care. She never has time for me, just time for arguments...
/Your family don't care about you./
...I've also been trying to get help. But things just get messed up and then everyone thinks I hate them and keep apologising for "trying to be my friend" or "trying to help".
This is all my fault...
I'm finally going to the doctor soon. I get kinda nervous for some odd reason.
Came home from doctors to some shit. One of my friends wants to kill themselves. Great. As if there weren't so many people that are just begging to die cause of me.
/Instead of just killing people of you should suffer instead. You deserve it./
Fucking hell...is it gonna be one everyday? One person dying a day?! He was so nice...and I just rejected him. It's all my fault...
HE'S FUCKING GONE CAUSE OF ME IT'S ALL MY FAULT HE'S DEAD!! I should be dead not him!!
/Look at that, you killed another person. Two people in under 24 hours? You're horrible. You deserve to suffer in every way possible./
It's no use...no one can help...
Just leave me to die already.
RIP...
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