Date: 3rd July 2015
Time: 6:55pm
Her name is Mikayla. She met me on a random app and she instantly fell in love with me. I felt a bit awkward that she loved me cause I loved someone else and I don't want to hurt her...
Too late, I already hurt her. I hurt her so much.
She found out about my cuts and wanted to know why I did it. I said I had a fucked up like and it's my only way to live. It's true...I can't live without it...
"Whatever you do, I'll do it ten times more."
Wait what? No, no, no! Please don't hurt yourself!! I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry! Just please don't hurt yourself...
"If I like someone that cuts then I'll cut too."
/It's your fault she's cutting. You ruined everything for her./
This is why love shouldn't exist. It only causes pain.
Wait, is she cutting because I am?
"I know it may sound stupid but yes."
Fuck....I'm so sorry I'll just get out of your life please stop liking me fucking hell why do I always do this just please stop hurting yourself cause of me I know I'm horrible and shitty but please stop...
"Do you want me to stop liking you? Be very honest..."
/Say yes. You'll never have her annoy us again./
This very question can cause her so much pain with just a single word answer. I'm unsure as to whether this love should happen. Forget it, you shouldn't ever have love.
I don't know...I don't want to hurt you so you have to stop liking me. But...I need love...I don't have any love...
"Just text me I guess if you wanna talk if not, I'll miss you. Sorry for the anger. I have really bad anger issues. I love you..."
She's gone...is she actually gone? Did I do this? I ruined her chance of love? WHY DO I FUCK UP EVERY TIME. I HURT EVERYONE UGH WHY IM SUCH A FUCKING FREAK!
This wouldn't be a problem if...
/-you didn't exist./
-if love didn't exist...
There's no love...and there's no me either.
It's always just gonna be us.
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