Escaping Hallucinations

Round 20

Date: 18th June 2015

Time: 07:45am

Well, that was a pleasant sleep. Nothing better than hearing babies crying and people snoring. Oh well, I just have to deal with it.

I woke up really early cause we're only getting breakfast now. There's this cute little toddler named Sebastian (ah the Black Butler) and he kept on looking at me since we woke up. He then came out of his bed and well being the....person that kids like? Yeah, being that person I waved and smiled and he waved back. He started playing with the toys in front of my bed.

Anyways, I'm meeting up with CAMHS today. I heard on a phone call that it's not going to be one-to-one. Ah yes, nosy me.

Soon after, a man comes up to me talking about school. Apparently there's a mini school in the hospital which I can go to. Well I'm sure it's better than lying around doing nothing plus I can make some friends so why not? I'm not allowed to got to school until I've finished me CAMHS appointment so I'll just wait.

My CAMHS appointment is here and Sarah (my psychiatrist) is asking me all sorts of questions based on my life. She then comments that I'm very skinny and also says that she can tell I'm depressed just by looking at me. Sarah is really nice and helpful to me.

I come back from CAMHS and my parents are there. Sarah has a meeting with my parents and then I go off to school. School is just around the corner from the ward and is a small class filled with bits and bobs. I walk in and see about 7 people there. Wow, this is a small class. I'm with my teacher Melissa and she's teaching history today. She decides to keep me in all her groups so I don't feel uncomfortable. I meet Lola and Hannah, two girls who are also doing history. They seem really nice. The thing is that I feel like everyone here is shy and quiet but that just makes it nice.

Halfway through the lesson, Chris comes in to see how I'm doing in class. Lola had to go somewhere so now it's just me and Hannah working on our suffragette speeches.

It's now lunch and I spend my time playing fish with my parents.

When lunch is over I head off to school again for art this time. A double lesson of art, exciting. I come in and see some more people now. Our task is to find a picture on the Internet and then make a collage similar to it. I chose blue flowers cause blue is bae and flowers are bae too. Lauren chose a water lily picture that looks so beautiful. I think about making some conversation with her by saying that the pic looks nice.

"So what year are you in, Robin?"

Sumayya is basically the Senpai of the group. She made me feel more comfortable and stuff. I say I'm in year 9 and surprisingly most of the people here are in year 9. The people I think that are in year 9 are:
Hannah
Lola
Megan
Demi
Charlie
Perri

Charlotte, Lauren and Zach are doing GCSE's or A-levels so they're mainly on the computers.

Around the table of collage madness is me, Lauren, Sumayya, Charlie, Demi, Hannah and Megan. We all talk about our preferred song choices and Pitch Perfect.

Sometime later, Sarah comes along to call me out. She says that she's referred me to a CAMHS closer to where I live and that if anything is troubling me between now and our next appointment I should call her.

After this, I got another doctor come in saying that I was having a quick check up to see if I can be discharged.

"You must be really nice if you're being discharged that quickly."

Demi please don't say that...cause she's so hot (hot damn).

ANYWAYS, I end up being discharged and before I leave I say goodbye to the school where only Zach and Demi are still there.

I've said all my goodbyes and I feel kinda sad. I'm really gonna miss this place. I hope I can say hi to the school on Tuesday when my next appointment is.