and it was perfect

Chapter 38

I knew he'd be long gone even if I ran after him and that he needed to be alone right now. I even knew what place he would drive to at this very moment. I took another deep breath and went back inside. I wasn't feeling like partying anymore; I was way too exhausted. Instead, I grabbed my jacket that was still lying on a pile on a random bed. Then I scanned the room to find Zoe. She was dancing with Matt, currently giving him a deep kiss in the middle of the living room. I didn't want to bother her. Instead, I grabbed my phone and shot her and Taylor a quick message. "I was tired, so I left early. Everything's fine, I promise. Have a great night x", then I hit send and walked home.

Aidens car was gone as expected. I just hoped he didn't drink much tonight, but he usually never overdid it. Back inside, I grabbed one of his hoodies hanging behind the door. If I couldn't be with him tonight, I at least wanted to feel as close to him as possible. I got ready for bed and put on some underwear, a tank, and his hoodie. His scent was all over it, and I cuddled myself into it and quickly drifted into a deep sleep.

He didn't get home all night. I woke up early in the morning and sneaked downstairs to check if his car was back in the driveway. It wasn't. I prayed he didn't spend the night with another girl or ended up with Reed in the end. I didn't know where his fear came from and how he would cope. If he would do something incredibly stupid. I poured myself some tea and sat down on the couch. Then I grabbed my book and blanket from upstairs and made myself comfortable. I wouldn't move all day if I had to until he finally came back.

At some point, I must've fallen asleep again. The rattling of the door lock finally dragged me out of it. I shrieked. It seemed to take him a few tries until he finally opened it. He was drunk. And groaned when he saw me sitting on the couch. "Please tell me you didn't drive here" I asked and sat myself up. He shook his hand and tried taking off his shoes. Oh boy. "I'm not talking to you."

I rolled my eyes. "Please, just tell me how you got home." He groaned again and finally took off his second shoe. "Walked." He mumbled and walked towards the stairs. I got up and followed him. "Go away. I don't want you. Or this." He grumbled. I wouldn't let him fall down the stairs, so I kept close behind him. "I know, you hate me. I'm awful. Im just going to bring you to bed." He scoffed but didn't answer. He was way too focused not to trip anywhere.

I followed him all the way towards his room, then I quickly opened the door to let him in and closed it after us. "I'm fine, Jen. Just go to sleep." I positioned myself in front of him. "I know; now take off your shirt, and I'll be gone in a minute." He quietly cussed and grabbed the seam of his shirt. I helped him, pulling it over his head, then I reached for his pants. "I can do that." he growled. Fine by me. I stepped back and watched him take it off; which took him at least two minutes. I couldn't help but gaze over his body, those muscles I hadn't seen in way too long.

"Stop it." he grumbled. He started tumbling towards his bed, and I quickly pulled away his blanket before he fell onto it. Then I grabbed his water bottle from his desk and opened his nightstands. Condoms, tissues, and some painkillers. Perfect. I put a blister pack on top of it and the water bottle right next to it. I knew he would kill me right now if I tried to make him drink some. Then I sat down next to him and put the blanket on top of his body. And couldn't help but raising my hand to lightly stroke his hair. It felt way too good. "Aiden..?" I quietly asked. He just groaned. "I'd throw you out of this room if I could. Just goo."

I let out a deep breath but didn't stand up. "Did you sleep with any girls tonight?" I asked, trying to hide the fear in my voice. Although I knew he wouldn't even recognize it, he was way too exhausted. He didn't answer for a minute, and I thought he'd fallen asleep, but my heart kept racing. Then he mumbled: "No." I breathed out, relieved, and couldn't help but smile. "Thank you." I whispered. Then I stroked his hair once again and gave him a tiny kiss. He frowned. "Goodnight, Aiden."