TW: depression
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You woke up feeling like shit, usual. Then you got out of bed and tben got back in. You were sick of not having energy all the time feeling like a failure. You don't wanna get out of bed, you have to pretend to be happy so people don't worry about you. You are tired all the time and everything.
You didn't really have energy to do anything and you were so tired so you put your head back in the pillow and fell back asleep. When you woke up again you felt your shoulder being shook gently. "M' tired." You mumble and roll over then the person chuckles a bit. "Well how about you sleep on the sofa. We at least want you out of your room, we know your struggling at the minute. Swiss says and you turn to him and frown. "Was it that obvious?" You ask him and he nods, "Your good at acting, like a happy person not like your happy self. Come on." He says and picks you up. You squeal and put your arms around his neck and hold onto him.
He carries you down to the living room while your trying to stay awake. "You don't have to wake up yet. It's only like 2pm there's still hours in the day." He says and you nod and then close your eyes. You feel him sit down and then you tuck your head into his chest and fall asleep again. When you wake up again it's like your finally ready to wake up. You slowly open your eyes and see everyone is watching a movie. "Hello." Swiss whispers into your ear, "Hi." You say and then cuddle into him more. "Do you want me to move? What time is it? Can I get food?" You ask all at once.
"You can get food whenever you want, ill come with if you like and it's about half six and you don't have to move off of me. Well except to get food, but you don't even have to do then if you don't want." He says and you nod and stand up and pull him up. Then you walk into the kitchen, "Okay, I can't make decisions so jacket potato or beans on toast?" You ask and he thinks, "Jacket potato." He says and you cheer. "Okay." You say with a smile and put them in the microwave. Then you grate a lot of cheese and make it all. Once it's ready you sit down and start eating. "Can you get something so I'm not the only one eating? Like a chocolate bar." You say and he nods and stands up.
"So how are you feeling at the moment?" He asks, "I'm just tired again, I don't feel happy. I don't know why it got bad again but it did, I just don't want to wake up in the morning. I would never do anything to hurt myself though, I know I have all of you to go to if I feel line that but like if one day I didn't wake up I wouldn't be mad about it. Like I don't know, I guess I'm just depressed again." You say and he nods. "Want a hug?" He asks and you nod and hug him tightly. You end up turning around and sitting in his lap and dragging your food over and eating again and he puts his hands on your waist and his head on his shoulder. "Do you want to go out somewhere. I know you like roller skating we could go somewhere like that?" He asks and you turn around and smile. "We can go roller skating?" You ask with a giant smile and he smiles and nods. You eat and then go back into the living room and arrange it all. Then you slowly come out of your depression, the end.
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Thank you to everyone that has messaged or commented saying I can message them if I need I really appreciate it. There's no point in lying though and saying I feel better. I think I've gotten to a stage where I don't want to even breathe because it's just energy. I feel like I need a long sleep to refresh myself but I can't even sleep enough coz I typically fall asleep at half 3 then my mum wakes my up at ten so guess I'll just suffer. I might close this book instead of keeping writing notes down to my death day. Like it's kinda mean you having to watch me not getting better and then one day I publish a story saying good bye. I know people care about me on here (apparently) and that people like my book but there are like 60 something smuts on here and we'll I guess that mean 40 angst and fluffs as well so that enough of re-read I guess. Also sorry if you comment and I don't reply for a while or at all. If I don't reply for a while it's coz my notifications aren't working for some stupid reason and if I don't reply I either forgot or was overthinking it so I'm sorry if I didn't reply to your comment
