Okay right now I feel fine and tbh I want to get better. So does anyone have any tips as to how I can like stay feeling like this? Like but I don't have that much money and I can't go anywhere further than walking distance but like I do live in a village with a couple walking paths. Should I try go on a walk? Idk I want to stay feeling like this because if I do then I can make it until I can do the things I need to do to be wayyyy less depressed but I have to wait a year and 2 months until I can do that so I just want to feel like this.
Idk just like any small things I can do. And yes this is progress but I'll probably get worse again later.
Oh yk what fuck it, I'm finishing this book. I don't want people caring about me because I can't do this anymore. So I think im gonna complete the book and then non of you are ever going to here from me and that's fine.
I'm sorry that was mean, please don't care about me. It's stupid no one cares about me, no one ever has no one ever will and I don't deserve anyone caring about me. Don't care about me please just let me go, I don't want to be here anymore. I don't see why so many people try to keep other people they've never met alive when they are struggling themselves. All its going to do is hurt you if you can't keep them here, and then you get attached and they fucking die anyways and it just makes you feel worse. And I can almost guarantee that most if not everyone that has commented or messaged me is struggling so focus on yourself. Im just an unimportant person that you shouldn't give two shits about. Idk if I should finish the book.
Omg I'm a terrible person, why did I let so many people know about me. Oh my god I'm so stupid. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry please don't hate me. I didn't meannto idk what the fuck is wrong with me anymore. I'm so sorry I starting writing angst and all my problems, why didn't I keep them to myself? Oh I'm sorry, I'll stop it now.
