TW: SH, crying
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You sat in your bed with your head screaming at you. Should you message a ghoul? 'No they hate you, besides you never have before why now?" The voices screamed. You felt tears in your eyes, you opened your phone case and got out your blade and then took off your sleeve. (Like detachable sleeve, like idk arm warmers?). 'Pussy, ruined 3 months, can't even keep 2 weeks anymore' the voices screamed and I screamed quietly. I brought the blade down to my arm and swiped. I went as deep as I could across my arm and cried at the stinging, painful feeling but I didn't stop. The blood started pouring out like a stream but I didn't care, I swiped again and then grabbed a light red cloth from next to my bed and let the blood pour onto that. I kept cutting, some deep some not. Some long some short in all different directions. I then heard a knock on my door. "DONT COME IN, ONE SECOND." I screamed as the door handle twisted. I jumped up with the cloth and ran to the bathroom and washed it off but the blood was flowing. "You okay?" I hears Swiss say from the other side. "Yep one second." You say and then grab a bandage and then realize you can't cover the bandage. "FUCK SAKE." You scream and then Swiss opens the door and sees your arm. "Y/n, what have you done?" He asks and walks up to you and you burst out crying. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, you weren't supposed to find out about this." I say whilst crying and Swiss smiles a sad smile. "It's okay, I'm not mad, I promise I'm not mad, please let me help you bandage them safely though?" He asks and I nod. He walks forward and quickly hugs me and then washes the cuts again. He grabs some cloth and wraps it and puts it over the deeper one's and then wraps 2 rolls of bandages across your whole arm making sure to cover every cut. "All done, hug?" He asks and I basically fall into his arms and cry. "I'm sorry." I say and je shakes his head, "It's fine, you can always come to me, or message or call me. And please don't cry I'm gonna cry." He says and actually sounds upset unlike the dumb bitches that usually say this.
I slow down my tears and then he walked me over to my bed. "I'm taking this." He says and grabs the blade I left on my bed in a hurry, I nod knowing I have others and apparently he falls for it. We lay down and cuddle the end
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I haven't done anything, I'm still okay just had a shitty day, I think im going to take a week or 2 break with absolutely no updates what so ever but I'll still reply to comments and stuff. I will try get back into writing smut at some point but I'm just not in the mood yk. Don't wanna, anyways so I guess I am officially on a break, even though technically I said I was on a break already but I am like actually on a break rn unless I have a good idea and the motivation to write it.
