not thinking 'bout the reason why you're not blowing up my phone
amidst the chaos of our past, have you found your comfort zone?
gave you everything you continued to consume till it's not enough
as my mind contradicts, a heart reckons I never not need your love
listening to the heart can be pure yet demeaning at the same time
occasionally, I'd oddly wish you'd pay a visit or call in the meantime
fighting every recurring flashback until it disappears in an instant
at nights I wonder, "why did we let our relationship end up distant?"
often comparing each other, why is it you get so competitive?
hearing statements like 'I have it easier than you' gets repetitive
give credence to a one-sided thought when it's only half true
for once, won't you scrutinize from a different point of view?
reversing its effects, the silence is starting to deafen both of my ears
the wind howls as I long for your warmth, yet I realize you're not here
asking the void, "why does the silence have an impact on me too?"
searching for a cure without knowing what am I supposed to do
grieving in nights is all there is to occur, thinking about a lost cause
while days are a battle to get by when I recall what we've tossed
the pace of not looking back, I couldn't keep up if I can't let you go
as a heart is incapable of saying the four words, it fills itself with woe
breaking our pact could've been the easiest task for you to do
reminiscing the times when the closest thing you had was me
trying my hardest to not be persuaded of coming back to you,
in dire straits, I find that it's harder than I anticipated it to be
a hundred miles I have to reach, yet perhaps, the destination doesn't exist
passing by 207 street, a nostalgic memory of ours enters as I try to resist
I'm withholding myself from reciprocating as I run from everything behind.
when a heart tends to reminisce, it takes me right back to the starting line
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After the Eventide
PoetryDivided into four chapters, "After the Eventide" is a collection of poetry and prose that navigates through different stages in one's youth, thus growing up in an unsettling and unforgiving place. It circles around relationships, giving too much un...
