Words that can't be written

Chapter 39

Pinanood kong kinuha ni Aiden ang susi ng kanyang sasakyan. Bago pa siya lumabas ng cellphone ay tinignan nya muna ako ngunit tinaasan ko lang siya ng kilay. He shook his head and continued walking away.

Umakyat ako sa kwarto ni Reziel at mga ilang katok pa ang ginawa ko bago nya ako pinagbuksan. Hindi ko ginustong kamuhian niya ang kanyang ama, ang gusto ko lang ay hindi siya lumaki ng maraming tanong o kulang at may hindi pa nalalaman I want her to grow strong and independent, which will help her in the future when I'm already gone.

Umupo ako sa tabi niya ng mahiga muli siya sa kanyang kama at nagtaklob ng kumot. Marahan kong sinuklay ang kanyang buhok at hinalikan ang likod ng kanyang ulo.

"I loved your dad."

She flinched when I said that. Like she doesn't believe in everything, I will tell her.

"If you love him, we are his one and main family, not his side family." She coldly replied, still not facing me. Her voice also cracked, which made my eyes watered.

"May mga bagay na hindi talaga para saatin. Yes, we love each other in the past. You are made out of love, but you see, love doesn't last that long." I will do everything to make her understand the situation. So she won't hate her father but learn to accept the situation.

"What made you out of love, then? Is it the wife of him?" She cried louder when she said that.

"No, it's not. It's not like that. It's because of the situation. You see, my mom died, my father is ill, and I haven't had the chance to contact your father when I need him because I do understand that he's busy achieving his dream. We lost our connection, as we lost our love to each other." I explain in every positive way.

I don't want to ruin her father's image. He also deserves to be recognized by his daughter. After all, I am the reason why he didn't get the chance to take care of her daughter, be with her when my daughter needs him.

I didn't listen cause I'm afraid that his family planned this, I let the psst control me. Yes, that photo made me mad. It made me think he cheated, but what if he really loves Traciel. I was the one who cheated with him. Loves work for them and not for us.

"You gave up him chasing him, didn't you?" She sobbed again, but this time, she let me see her face. I hug her in my arm and kiss her in every second. We can't talk like this. We can't talk when I see her cry.

"I did because I believe that if loves works between us, this won't let us separate."

"You will still separate even if you love each other because love also needs to be strong, endure the pain together, and fight for each other. That's what Belle taught me."

I smiled and fixed her messy hair.

Tumango ako sa kanyang sinabi dahil tama sya. Sadyang naging mahina lang ako at pinaubaya si Aiden dahil iyon ang alam kong makakapagpasaya at makakapagpalaya sa kanya. He can fly without me.

"But love taught me to let go of someone I love because I want him to be happy."

Wala na akong karapatang pigilan pa siyang sumaya. Wala na akong karapatang sabihing kami naman ang piliin nya. Wala na akong karapatang sabihin na ako naman ang mahalin niya, dahil ako ang unang bumitaw at nagtulak palayo sa kanya.

"He don't love you anymore?"

Tumango ako sa kanya. Tumulo na ang luha ko kasi totoong hindi na ako mahal ni Aiden. Ako na lamang ang naiwan sa nakaraan namin. Ako na lang yung takot itapon ang pinagsamahan namin.

"Yes, he has family now. Remember your tita Traciel, who called kanina? They also have a son. The one you saw in the hospital playing with his car toy."