Abundance from Light

Chapter 28

Chapter 28

First

I remembered when I was starting in this industry, I am a front act before the main singer.  Am the one who will entertain guests before the special and most awaited singer.

Nasa akin nga ang atensyon ng tao pero nawawlaa iyon kapag lalabas na ang iniidolo nila.

While now, I can hear the shouting voices calling my name while I am on the stage. I put the earphone on my ears so I can hear properly the soothing instruments.

I can really say that behind my success there are people who are pulling you down and treating you as if you are not enough for everything. A lot of words came from their mouth that I am not enough. But I don’t listen to the nonsense that’s why I am here. I may be going to argue but I will control myself. But sometimes I cannot when their words are daggers and always on my chest.

“Are you guys ready!” paglilingaw pa ng host habang ako ay abot na ang kabog ng puso ko sa langit hindi ko mawari ang laaht ng ito.

Mas lalong kumantyaw ang tao na siyang kinalamig ko sa pwesto.

“Here we go! Ready yourself as we welcome our powerful star, Gianna Bautista!” nagsimula ang ugong ng stage at uambas ako ng sinabi na.

Sa kaba ko at sa naramdamn ko ang bawat salubong ng tao sa akin ay kakaiba. Hindi ko mawari hindi ko maipaliwang. Unti unting nawala ang kaba sa akin lalo nat ang aking kamay ay nasa mic na. Kumaway ako at ngumiti sa kanila na mas umingay pa.

“Hello Tagum City!” sigaw ko at mas naging maingay ang mga tao.

Nagsimulang tumugtog kaya nagsimula akong kumanta. Umupo ako sa isang silya na kinalabit para sa akin habang nilagay ko ang mic ko roon para makanta ao ng maayos habang pinapatgugtug ko ito.

“My day is blast
I hope it won’t last
I hold your hand
Like we’re together
Remember all those promises to each other
Smile ‘cause I don’t want to see you cry.” I stopped and continue to strum.

“Love should stay
Love could take you away
I love you every day
I do in any way,” pagkakanta ko sa chorus.

“What a powerful performance Miss Gianna Bautista, You really the queen of your own!” bati sa akin ng host ng matapos ako. Lumingon ako s akanya. 

“Thank you for inviting me here, “ ani ko.

Matapos ang pag bisita ko roon ay pinabalik kaagad ako ni Miss Che sa Manila.

"Gianna. I am not mad. I am just worried. Well, in fact, I am happy for you. Ilang years ka ding single di ba?"

Namataan ko ang kamay niya sa palad ko. Tumingin ako sa kanya, nanghihina.

"Look, I am not mad okay. I am just happy but please be careful. Hindi naman toxic ang fans niyo ang iba ay masaya sa kung saan ka masaya. Pero ang iba ay hindi lang matanggap na, Villanueva. Iba ang pananaw nila roon," sagot niya sa akin.

Nagkibit balikat ako.

"I know Miss Che. They are throwing some hurtful words that I  am a gold digger,” I said.

"Natatakot lang ako anak na baka... manghimasok na ang iba sa relasyon niyo. Lalo na at nakaabot na mayaman siya. At... hindi nila alam na apo siya ng Levada Company. We will keep it a secret. As long as you keep quite too,” she assured me with her sweet smiles.

"Thank you Miss Che," I said to her.

Now, I am here in a secluded area where i should rehearse my talent and do it more often. Nag wo workshop ako sa iba’t ibang araw para mas madagdagan ang magagawa ko sa industriya na ito.

But seeing me now like a gallop of the people eyes on me. I dont know what to react. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman na may totoong na lilink sa akin.

Sa buong showbiz life ko ay hindi ako nagkajowa. Kahit mga artista kong kasama ay hindi nila naisipan iyon na magkajowa ako na kapwa ka trabago.

"There will be an interview for you tomorrow. Kailangan mo ding mag react sa lahat ng sinavi nila sayo. After all, we should confirm it. There's no secret here,” si Miss  Che.

Ang inaalala ko rito ay baka iba ang pananaw nila kay maynard na baka pera ko din ang habol ko.

"Did you read the comments?"she asked me. I shook my head.

"No. I am afraid to do it so...."

She squinted my hand. I glance at her.

"Just don’t be afraid. Please, just don’t. Be yourself. Fight for that relationship. I won’t blame you for that publicity but... you can handle the hate and love thrown at you right? I believed in you anak."

After that she embrance me tight. Ķaya naman kinabukasan ay pinaunlakan ko ang interbirw. I smiled in the camera as they begin to rolled in.

He introduce himself and begin to speak until he welcomed me and asked a basic questions like how I am until this.

"Miss Gianna, is that true? Friend or more than" diretso niyang ani sa akin.

"Hm…the pictures you mean" usisa ko sa knayang pabalik.

Kumunot ang noo niyang natatawa habang nakabaling sa akin.

"You can confirm it who is that man, Miss Gianna? " he said while looking at my eyes. "We had a lot of speculation. Some are glad that you are happy and seeing someone after Ben are not into you. Some are sad because you and Ben are not into each other. As a Giaben fan, we are happy for your happiness and sad because our idols are not together and only for the camera."

Tumawa ako. I smiled in the camera sweetly.

"I am glad that you are all okay about that. And I am fine right now, please don’t push me and Ben to be together. Because we are just friends."

Naghiyawan ng tao. Hindi naniniwala sa sinabi ko.

"Do you like Ben even before?" pag-iiba niya ng topic.

Umiling ako. "Actually not, he's not my type. And I know I am not his type too."

Muli ay nag ingayan ang tao.

"So sad. "

"I hope you all support that even though we are not meant for each other. We are just friends, please don’t push us to be together. We worked as partners and friends off cam. We  both decided that even when we paired together." I uttered while smiling at the whole crowd.

"And whatever whom we fall with, please be with us. It’s our life. I know that you all be sad but please as your favorite actress, be supportive of them. Be with them. And know that they’re human too. They can follow what their heart belongs to. "

Mas lalong nanahinik ang crowd. May iba ay ngumuti lang ang iba ay nakatingin lang sa akin.

"Have a blast day everyone. I love you Giaben fans, my Giannatics. And so on. " I started to wave to them as the host ended the interview.

“You are brave enough, Gianna,” si Fria.

Siguro ay ako lang ang una na nagsabi noon sa publiko na wag kaming pilitin at wag silang makialam sa buhay namin.

Isa  siyang broken  dahil kay Ben.

I smiled. And looked at her. She is beautiful with her flaws. I really appreciated their beauty, especially the eyes. There's something in the eyes that I can contact with, I can read with. And it's my favorite part of the body. It's sensitive and needs to be protected too.

"Pangit ba ako Gianna? Na discourage ba siya sa pimples ko?"

Pagtatakip niya pa sa mukha nya. Umiling ako.

"No, you’re actually beautiful. You can see it but we people around you saw how you shine brightly. You are talented I am sure there's someone who can be with you forever. Ben is just an inspiration. Maybe,"pagpipigil ko sa maaring sabihin niya pa.

“Pero…si Ben,” dahilan niya.

"Don’t chase. Let them chase you."

I winked afterward. Tumaas ang kilay niya.