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Can you feel the love tonight?

Lynn's POV
It was 3 in the morning and I couldn't sleep. It was just one of those nights where you just couldn't sleep. There were too many things going through your mind and most of them were about this person whose sleeping right next to you. Killua and I were facing the wall, our backs to each other. It normally wasn't like this. With us. When I stay over, Killua and I always cuddle underneath the blankets never letting go. Now...I turned away from the wall and was face to face with Killua. He was facing me now, his eyes still closed and still sound asleep, his hands close to his sides, as if he didn't want his hands to wander around the bed. Like he was denying himself of his favorite candy. At times he was so peaceful and then the next he's frustrated and hurt... As if he's carrying this huge weight on his shoulders. I sighed and got up, obviously I'm not going to get any sleep tonight. Instead of grumbling about it, I decided to make it work to my advantage and decided to do something useful.

I took out my mom's diary from between my messed up clothes. And headed for the living room. I ruffled up my hair and heaved a sigh and flopped down the sofa, leaning against the overly comfortable armrest. I folded my knees against my chest and placed the diary on them, scanning the pages delicately.

August 6th 2010
Lilianna fainted again. And I'm still not used to any of this yet. Not used to her being weak, not used to Lynn feeling depressed and definitely not used to coming back home to a depressed atmosphere. There wasn't anything to be done about it though. We still haven't figured out Lilianna's disease and I'm starting to have doubts in our so called dream. True. Me and Ryo started this company because we wanted to create a healthy society. But now... I'm frustrated and tired and really really angry with myself. We couldn't even do anything for our own child. How could we possibly help all the people in the world or this country if we couldn't even protect something that was so precious to us? These doubts weighed my mind and clouded my vision. The vision that I had for the future. At times Ryo and I go out for drink during break. I never voiced my doubts to Ryo. But who knew I'd be such a blabber mouth when I got drunk? I told him all my doubts and he listened with a troubled look on his face. After that Ryo started talking to suspicious people. I didn't ask, but I observed. Even if I asked the response I would probably get was ,"Just some people from work hon". But I know that it's not just 'some people from work'. I know that one of his contacts is Silva Zoaldick from Zoaldick Inco-

"What are you reading this early in the morning?" I looked up in shock to see Killua, his eyebrow raised and phone in hand. He muttered something to the caller and ended the call and faced me once again. I shut the book and pressed it to my side. "Nothing. Who are you talking to this early in the morning?" I answered with a question of my own

"No one" he said and looked down at the floor. I sighed and walked past him inside the room. I'm not going to fight with him now. I dumped the book in my bag and zipped it up and slung it over my shoulder. Killua caught my wrist and pressed his chest against my back. I couldn't see his face and he couldn't see mine either. So I took the opportunity to grimace. It's not like I didn't like it.

It's kind of like...this is making me hope. And fall more. Just these simple gestures. I don't want anything from Killua. I didn't want romantic red roses or candle lit dinners. I didn't want any of that. I just wanted to feel needed. I want him to want me like I wanted him. Needed more like. "Don't go. I'm sorry ok?" He whispered those words in my ear and suddenly everything was ok again. I was not just some toy that Killua wanted to use and then throw away.
I leaned back against his chest and temporarily closed my eyes. "I-I'm not going. I'm just really tired. Sorry"
It was difficult to apologize for the both of us. But we did it because we wanted this to last for a little while longer. Just a little bit. Maybe it's just me?

I was brought back to reality when Killua removed his hands from my wrist and snuck it around my waist and buried his head in the crook of my neck. I allowed my fingers to thread into his silver strands and caressed it slightly. Killua let out a sound that I would have thought I were dreaming about but he did he did it again.
"Woah. Are you purring?" I asked with a chuckle. "What are you a cat?!"
Killua buried him head deeper and I heard a muffled version of "Shut up"
I chuckled again. "I can't believe we're doing this 3:30 in the morning. And we have school tomorrow"
"Well. We can always bunk" I glared at Killua even though I knew full well that he couldn't see. "No. We can't. First of all, jienna would kill me. Second of all Sienna would kill me" I heard a chuckle and tilted my head towArds Killua. He caught me by surprise by leaning forward and capturing my lips in a kiss. It was just a quick chaste kiss but still felt special nonetheless.
"Then I'll protect you princess" Killua said with his trademark playboy wink.
I rolled my eyes and snorted. "Ya. Can't wait to see my knight in shining armor protect me"
"What can I say? I like showing my heroic side from time to time" I chuckled after rolling my eyes another time. I can't believe I fell for the most complicated guy.

"Wanna turn on some music?" Killua asked, raising an eyebrow and quirking his lips slightly. We were currently sitting on the couch, drinking a cup of coffee at 4 in the fucking morning. Why? Cause we both couldn't and didn't want to sleep for some reason so we decided to chill out in the living till the sun comes out. And then probably sleep in school. Not my plan.
"Music? Why do you want to listen to music at 4 in the morning? You're gonna wake up the neighbors"
"I just felt like listening to some music with you. And don't worry about the neighbors. They won't wake up even if a hurricane where to come our way" I nodded and we both got up from the couch and headed for Killua's CD collection. Killua handed a bunch of CD's to me and I went through them carefully. There was some very good stuff in there.

EDM, Rock, some Pop, Hip hop, R&B And a lot of other genres. I finally came across a CD that was one of my favorites and immediately ran towards the player. Killua diverted his attention from the CD's to me as he saw me fiddling with the player. "Found something you like then?" I nodded my eagerly. My eyes were probably wide and sparking. "Actually we have similar taste in music. This song is one of my absolute favorites" I pushed play button and faced Killua. The beat filled the entire room and Killua smiled and started singing along under his breath.

"I see what your wearing
There's nothing beneath it
Forgive me for staring
Forgive me for breathing
We might now know why
We might not know how
But baby tonight we're beautiful now"

I dragged him to the middle of the living room and whispered in his ears. "Dance with me" he quirked an eyebrow and quickly shook his head. "Cmon!! Can't you just feel the love tonight?" Killua rolled his eyes and stayed rooted to the spot. I sighed and caressed his cheek. "We both have been a little...tense these past few days. This is just to unwind. We're beautiful now right?" Killua nodded and pulled me closer. "Ya. We are" he said with a chuckle. I slung my arms around his shoulders and smiled and started singing along.

"We'll light up the sky
We'll open the clouds
Cause baby tonight
We're beautiful now
We're beautiful"

I swayed my hips to the beat and Killua smiled hesitantly. "Just dance ok? No one is here to judge you. It's only me" I guess those words were all that Killua needed. He took one of my hands and twirled me around twice before catching me by my hips and tilting my head back. I fell backward with his hand as my support and he leaned in, a genuine smile on his face.

"We're beautiful"

When the EDM part came in he brought me against his chest and we both started jumping, our hands in the air, letting our inner animals lose. I swayed my head from side to side, my hair hitting my eyes. No one here to judge. Just each other.

When the EDM part died down he pulled me against his once again. We were panting and our cheeks were flushed. Sweat coated our brow yet we still leaned in and rested our foreheads against each other and started singing along again. Together.

"Wherever it's going
I'm gonna chase it
What's left of this moment
I'm not gonna waste it
Stranded together, our worlds have collided
This won't be forever, so why try to fight it?"

"We're beautiful now"

We leaned in at the same time to capture each other's lips in a mind blowing kiss. He pressed me against his body and deepened the kiss. His tongue brushed over my lower lip and I gasped. He took the opportunity to invade my mouth, our tongues dancing with each other. He pulled back and kissed my forehead. "Thank you"

"We're beautiful now"

Hey guys!!
Another fluff filled chapter!!
The song's name is Beautiful now by Zedd, who's by the way an amazing EDM artist.
Thank you for all your support guys!!
Until next time!!