Façade

You're my Achilles heel

WARNING- THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS CHARACTERS CONSUMING ALCOHOL BUT NOTHIG MUCH.
Just a heads up ;)

"Do you hate me?" I looked up from putting my things away in my room and saw Sienna leaning against the door. It had been a week since that day. Sienna's eyes were tired and signs of fatigue can be seen in the darkness under her eyes. Her hair was dishevelled and I could see that she didn't care in the least. I got up from my position on the floor and grabbed her wrist and led her into my room. That day Kurapika left the house and wordlessly and Sienna lapsed into a furtive silence since then. The week was a little light hearted, filled with school and Jienna and Gon. Sienna didn't talk to me and I didn't talk to her as I still needed to organize my thoughts. And finally I could see clearly.
I smiled in her direction and forced her to sit on the chair near my bed and I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes. "Ok. Now you're my therapist. C'mon. Ask me your questions"
"Lynn -"
"We haven't done this in a while right? C'mon. Do your thing"
I could head her clearing her throat and leaning back on the chair. I waitiled patiently for the questions that I once upon a time loathed. "So how was your week?" There it was. The controlled professional voice of a person who was trained to control her emotions. The voice of the person who had been suffering quietly while I was oblivious. "I'm... where the hell do I even begin? Well first me and my boyfriend and I have this heartbreaking fight-"
"Boyfriend?" She squeaked a little and I smirked in triumph as I saw a small crack in her the professional exterior that she tried so hard to keep when we have these sessions. It was always a pleasure to crack that mask. "Oh.. I guess I totally forgot to mention that I wasn't single anymore. Anyway-"
"No wait. Who's this boyfriend?"
"It's Killua. Or it was Killua. Chill out"
She immediately quietened down and silently asked me to go on. "So we had this fight which turns out to be this giant misunderstanding. I have mixed feelings about him now and on top of that I discovered that this person who had always been by my side has suffered so terribly all this time and I never knew. My father turns to be this guy who's love for my mother made him completely blind and ended up making him a monster, making my mom depressed and the people around him suffer terribily"
"This person who was always by your side...what if she told you that it was worth the suffering?"
"Then I would probably smack her for lying to me. No way was it worth it. But it doesn't matter. It's in the past and I and really don't care about it"
"So what do you feel for this person now?"
I opened my eyes and sat up on the bed a small smile taking over my lips. "I feel admiration because she had a chance to run away, to just not address the situation. But she had the guts to face me and tell her worst secret. I want to tell this person that I really love her for finally opening up to me and always being there for me when I needed her. As a therapist for me to talk to, as a mother who gave me warmth and acceptance no matter  what I did it or what kind of person I was. And finally as a friend. So take this session as a payment for all these years of looking after my sorry ass"
I laughed and got off the bed and hugged Sienna who was still shocked speechless. "Sometimes the clients can also help the therapist. All you are to do is talk"
Sienna smile back  and hugged Lynn. They stayed there for a while, Lynn smiling to herself as Sienna let out all the years that she's been holding in for 20 years.

"Jiennas POV
"Where's Ging?"
"I don't know really.."
Gon was sitting on the couch sighing like that was his job. Ging was pulling the disappearing act on us. When we called him he said that he was busy. I flopped down next to Gon and nudged him. "It'll be ok"
"Ya... It should be"
Silence enveloped us and it was comfortable, our legs touching and eyes not meeting each other. We had grown much closer in these past couple of weeks that it's ridiculous. "I wonder what Killua is doing right now? That idiot"
"I don't get Killua. Why would he do that to Lynn just to protect her? Didn't he think it would hurt her?"
Gon smiled and faced me, his eyes radiating confidence.
"Killua cares about his loved ones. Much that himself actually. I'm sure he would have thought 'I don't want to regret not helping her when I had the choice to'. Plus the Zoaldicks have an active role to play in this. Maybe he's given himself up so that he could get information. I don't know. But I just hope he'll come back soon and all these things would be over. I want us all to go out together, Lynn without a wig and Killua without his emotional baggage. And you settling things with your mom"
"That won't happen" Gon chuckled
"I once thought it wasn't possible with my dad as well. Maybe we aren't the perfect family, but he's all the family I have and I'm happy"
I was about to answer when the doorbell rang. I opened it and Lynn stood there with the usual black wig, black sweatpants and a plain white T-shirt. She came inside and threw the wig aside, took a deep breath and flopped on the couch. "So you're permanently hanging out here?" Lynn asked me, her eyes glistened with a little twinkle. "Ya. Everything fucked in my house. My dads not even my real dad and the isolation was because of the fact that I looked a lot like my real dad. It brought my mom painful memories. Anyway I just collected a few more of my clothes and came back here" Lynn quietly listened to my story without reacting and gave another sigh. "Well things got bad at my end to. Anyway I came here so that I can forget about all that. It's in the past anyway"
I didn't question her but I knew that even though she said it got worse somehow the way she carried herself was a little lighter, like one of two of her problems were over. But as she threw her head back against the sofa, I could see how tired she really was, how heavy her heart is, how conflicted her emotions are. All her emotions tied into a ball not able to tell them apart and decipher them. It was easier for me. Like Gon had said all I had to do was think about the happy things. Now I'm with them so I'm happy. The darkness that clouded my vision has momentarily been lifted and I liked this vision full of color. I knew it wouldn't last. I could already feel it. It was like a cloud lurking on my head, ready to shower me with its sorrows. Before that happens, I knew I had to make the best of this time that I had with them as the future as unsure. "Hey Gon. You told me that you wanted to go somewhere together right? Let's do it. Just the three of us"
"Where?"
"Just a sec. I need to make some calls"