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Frightened and Hesitant

Lynn's POV
As soon as Jienna left me to go and talk with some of her friends, I walked to the changing rooms on my own and carefully changed back into my usual uniform. I slowly walked out of the changing rooms and went towards my classroom. My path was blocked by a certain someone. I looked up and glared at said person. Just take a wild on who that person might be? Yes. It was the egoistic bastard Killua Zoaldick. I sighed. "Look I don't have time to play games with you. Nor do I want to. So do is both a favor and move." I literally growled the last word. Killua didn't even flinch. He just looked at me with his cool stare as he leant against the wall. Suddenly he took a step forward and I instinctively took a step back. His eyes bore into me like it did the first day. And time seemed to slow around us once again. It was déjà vu all over again. Suddenly he came forward and slammed me against the wall and I glared at him. "What the hell did u do that for?" He looked at me calmly with his icy blue eyes. I tried pushing him away, but his grip on me was strong. I froze as he leant forward, his lips coming very close to mine. What. The. Hell. I squeezed my eyes shut and wished I could smack this bastard. When I felt his hot breath on my ear, I sucked in a quick breath. "You know? Why don't you just get rid of the wig?" He asked in a husky tone. My eyes widened. I started pushing him away even harder than before. He finally let go of my arms and I just stood there, watching him, my eyes wide like saucers. How did he...? Killua just stood there, with his hands in his pockets, looking at me with a calm gaze as if nothing happened. I mustered up the best glare as I could. "I don't know what your talking about. But don't ever touch me like that" I said through gritted teeth as I ran toward my classroom.

Killua's POV
I looked at the retreating form of Yuka as she rounded the corner and darted to the classroom. I sighed. Did I confront her too quickly? "Killua! There you are. Where did you run off to all of a sudden?" I looked behind me to find Gon running up to me. "Well. I just confronted her about something. " I said shrugging. Gon's eyes grew wide. "Killua. What did you do?" I shrugged. "I just asked her to get rid of the wig" Gon sighed. "And what makes you think she wore a wig Killua?" He asked in a tired voice. "Well Gon. As you know my mom used to wear a lot of wigs. Her hair was too glossy and too artificial. And sweat kept forming next to her forehead. Another sign that she was wearing a wig." Gon sighed "You probably freaked her out". I grinned and followed Gon to the classroom. "It's my specialty Gon" I said as I took my seat next to him.

The rest of the day went by with nothing interesting happening. Yuka was avoiding us like the plague. Whenever she saw us she dragged her friend, was Jienna her name?,out of sight. I was slightly amused. Did I manage to shake her up that badly? Maybe I shouldn't have gone that far as to confront her directly. I recalled Gon's words to me the first time he saw Yuka. She just reminds me of a certain someone. I mused. I wonder who he meant when he said that. Gon and I were walking home together as usual discussing petty school gossip. What? We liked to gossip from time to time. We reached his house and I said a quick goodbye. I walked toward my house and threw the door open. The house looked as lonely as always. I slowly shut the door and went inside the flat. I looked at a picture hanging in the living room that made me feel a ton of emotions. Sadness. Anger. Depressed. I touched the picture. In it was a twelve year old version of me, my eleven year old sister and ten year old brother both standing on either side of me. We were laughing at the camera, oblivious to the cruelty that fate had in store for us. "I'm back guys. Hope you didn't miss me while I was gone." I softly whispered. I was greeted with silence. I slowly took my hand away and gave a sad smile, remembering Alluka's last words. Don't cry brother. I want you to keep smiling. I want you to be happy. I don't want to be the reason behind those tears. I don't want to cause you pain. I'm doing fine Alluka I thought. I'm smiling now. Even though you're not here. I'm really trying. It might not be like before when we were kids.... But it's fine. I'm happy for now. And with that same smile I turned my back on the picture and went towards the bathroom to take a nice long shower

Lynn's POV
For the first time I didn't want to stay in school. I wanted the ground to just open up and swallow me whole. How did that guy find out? Why him of all people? I kept fidgeting throughout the day and was super anxious. Whenever I spotted Killua or Gon I pulled Jienna away from there and she followed without questioning me. When school finally got over I said a quick goodbye to Jienna and ran out of the school, dying to go home. I ran all the way back home, just wanting to shut myself up in the bathroom. When I reached home I was surprised to find another person present in the apartment. I saw Sienna sitting in the living room and reading her newspaper. She was in her early thirties and had blond hair that was tied in a loose ponytail and black eyes that studied me the moment I entered the room. She let a small smile grace her lips and she patted next to the sofa, telling me to come sit next to her. I complied. "Hey Lynn." She said as she slowly look of the wig from my hair resulting in my blue hair falling on my shoulders. "Hey Sienna. I never thought you'll come back this early. I thought you'd be away for at least another weak." She frowned and seized me up. "Why? Were you going to do something dirty in the house?" My eyes widened and I shook my head. She let out a small chuckle. "So how are you today?" She said going into professional mode. I sighed. "Can't you just be my adoptive mom and not therapist today?" She silently shook her head. I bowed my head in defeat and leant back against the sofa, looking bored. "Well. Nothing happened today."
"How are your hallucinations?" I immediately clenched my fists. Sienna noticed. "Your having the hallucinations again huh? Did you eat your tablets while I was gone?" I suddenly found the floor to be very interesting. "Lynn. You know your supposed to take your tablets. You don't want to have hallucinations when you're in school right?" She said to me in a gentle tone. When I didn't answer she sighed and moved on to the next question
"Did you get any new friends?"
"Ya. A girl named Jienna"
Sienna smiled and patted my shoulder and I looked up. "So it wasn't that bad was it?" I frowned and whispered, " A guy found out that I'm wearing a wig" Sienna frowned. "And how did that happen? Does he know your real identity?" I shook my head and buried my hands in my head, ruffling my long blue hair. "I don't know!! I don't know how he found out. Oh god! This exactly why I didn't want to do this! Now everyone's going to know. And.... I'm going to lose everything all over again." I let out a chocked sob. How long am I going to do this? How long am I going to keep running? I'm tired of this! I just want to close my eyes and never open them again. I was brought out of my thoughts when Sienna hugged me. I buried myself in her chest. He gently caressed my hair. "It's going to be fine Lynn. Why don't you approach that boy and talk to him about this?" I shook my head vigorously. "No. He's such a bastard. I don't think he'll hear me out. And we've never got along in school before. I don't think it will work out." I heard Sienna sigh. "Try ok?" I hugged her closer. We stayed like that for a few minutes in a comfortable silence. Then I broke it. "I'm scared" I said in a whisper. Sienna rested her chin on top of my head. "It's going to be fine Lynn. I'm here. Always." I squeezed the shirt she was wearing. That's what everyone said. My mom. My dad. My sister. But all of them left my alone wandering in the dark. Please stay Sienna. I don't want to be alone again.