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Lynn's POV
So many people. I felt suffocated. From past experiences I really hated being surrounded by people. My mind was ready for the insults. My body was ready for the bruises. My cool facade was on too. But... For once... None of that came. There were only smiles, greetings and a lot of introductions. It was overwhelming. It was all a new experience. Is this what it was like being another person? Maybe if I keep this up my old self would rot and die inside. But did I want that? I looked at everyone and gave them all a big smile. After a lot of introductions later I slowly slipped away from the crowd and made my way towards the cafeteria. I got a packet of melon bread and quickly exited the cafeteria. I turned I felt like someone was looking at me. I saw wide chocolate brown eyes looking into my blue ones. He gave me a bright smile and a polite nod and dragged a silver haired boy along with him towards the cafeteria door. Before he left, the silver haired boy turned and looked straight into my eyes. Both our eyes met and time began to slow around us. It was like he was looking into the depths of my soul. I quickly broke eye contact and he left the cafeteria. I shook my head and went over to the school grounds. I found a spot for myself and leant against a tree. I watched the sakura blossoms floating in the air harmlessly, stirring old memories. The pink sakura blossoms had long lost their pink colour and was replaced by bloody red. The atmosphere had lost its sweet fragrance and was replaced by the scent of blood. My fake black hair flew in the soft breeze and I tried hard not to remember the past. I was brought out of my reverie when someone gently tapped my shoulder. I turned around to find a girl with auburn hair and deep brown eyes that pierced through me. I raised an eyebrow and she smiled. "Hey. Your the new kid right? My name is Jienna" she extended her hand and i politely took it and shook it. "So what up?" I asked her. She sat down next to me and leant against the tree. "Well, you were sitting here all by yourself, and your first day shouldn't be like this. You sitting alone and admiring the scenery." I looked at her and gave a slight smile. "I'm not really good around people." I said scratching the back of my head. Jienna gave me a stern look. "Well then I'll keep you company then." We both say there under the tree admiring the sakura blossoms blowing in the wind. A small smile graced my lips. Being with someone else isn't bad at all. The rest of the day went by with Jienna showing me around school and introducing me to some of her friends. So far school turned out to be a great idea. It was acting like medicine, healing my open wounds, slowly but definitely. Maybe I should thank Sienna for giving the idea. She was my therapist after all. I went hope and slowly shut the door behind me. I leant against the door with a small smile. If only my whole life would just be this peaceful. The next thing I knew was my tired body flopping down on my bed.

Time skip: 1 week

I slowly woke up from my slumber. It's been a week since I started at Hunter Academy, and my life, it changed. I can't say if it was was for the better of for worse. Whenever I face my classmates, a dull ache spreads through me knowing that this peace wouldn't exist if they knew my true identity. They would never accept me. I got up from the bed and looked at a family portrait that hung in my room. Not exactly family. That hurt too much. It was just me and my adopted mom , Sienna who also happens to be my therapist. That reminds me... I got up, did my usual morning routine and left for school. Time flies by in school like a totally clear dream. If only this peace would last all the time. I walked into my math class and took my usual seat next to Gon. The guy and I weren't friends really, but he really was popular for helping people and most of the teachers trusted him to lend me his notes if I needed it. He's always tried to approach me during break, but I usually try to avoid him. His chocolate brown eyes always bore into me like they were trying to strip down my carefully constructed facade. I couldn't allow anyone to know. I wanted this fantasy to last for a little longer. For once my life isn't filled with anguish and loss. Even if I was living a lie, I wanted it to last. As soon as the teacher started teaching I zoned out. No Matter how hard I tried I always sucked at mathematics. I looked out of the window and saw the peaceful breeze and cherry blossoms floating in the air, spiraling down and touching the ground. The moment I focused on it too much I was sucked away from reality to the deep part of my soul, and it was forming ripples on its clear surface. Hands extended from beneath the surface and and pulled me down. I drowned in the thoughts of my past. I wanted to stay afloat, but the past always pulled me down and downed me. It shut me down. What did they always say? Reminiscing is bitter sweet? They got that right. One moment I'm in the classroom. The next moment I'm in my old house. I looked at the walls of the house that I had once shared with my family. My family. I looked on the floor. I saw a girl who was 12 years old. She was kneeling on the ground with a blood drenched knife in her hand, trembling. Her eyes were wide with fear, confusion and grief. Two limp bodies laid there on the floor covered in blood. The room smelt of blood. It reeked of blood. Bile raised in my throat. I took a step back. None of this was real. I was just drowning. I need to come up. I need to get out of this. The past is the past. My breathing became ragged. The girl on the floor let out a shrill cry. Mommy. Daddy. Don't leave me alone.
Live on Lynn.
You're so loved Lynn
A painful impact on my head snapped me out of my thoughts. "Hey Yuka were did you float off to? Class is over" I looked up and found Jienna who was currently giving me a stern look. Over the past week we became pretty close friends. I ran a hand through my fake hair and calmed down my breath as bile rose to my throat. "Well I'm sorry for zoning out. Just stuck in my thoughts. What is the next period?"
"P.E" she said with a sigh. I knew that Jienna hated any physical activity but it was a wonder how she maintained her physic. "Let's just get this over with then." She said as she dragged me out of the room. "Actually Jienna I need to go to the bathroom. I'll meet you in the gym ok?" I said as I gently pulled my wrist from her hand. She gave my a worried look. "Okay. Don't bunk the period ok?" She said before she shot me a bright smile and ran toward the gym. I ran in the opposite direction toward the bathroom. I ran inside one of the stalls and threw up. There was so much blood. I threw up again. This is all a lie. I'm alone. I sat in the stall for a few minutes and collected my thoughts. Mommy. Daddy. Why did you leave me? I leaned my forehead against the cool surface of the stall's door and calmed my raging thoughts. I brought my knees and pressed then against my chest. I let out a tiny sob and stayed there for a couple of minutes, just sitting there staring at the walls of the cubicle. I finally wiped away my tears and stepped out of the cubicle and washed my face and removed my fake hair. My long blue hair was securely in a bun. I was drenched in sweat. I bent my head, not willing to look at myself. I clenched and I clenched and my fists. I took a deep breath and put on my wig and raced to the gym. The wind hit against my face making me feel alive and bringing me out of the shock that that memory dragged me into. I ran to the changing rooms and quickly changed into my PE uniform and ran to the gym, my legs skidding on the polished surface. I skidded to a halt and went inside to face the wrath of my PE teacher, Menchi. She frowned upon my arrival. "Yuka, you know that you are five minutes late for my class?" I rubbed the nape of my neck and faked panting. "I'm sorry sensei.. I assure u it won't happen again" she nodded and motioned me to join the class in their drill. Menchi split us into two teams for volleyball. I scanned the enemy side for familiar faces. I saw Jienna, Gon and Killua on the enemy team. I sighed. Just my luck. I looked across the court to find Killua and Gon conversing in hushed tones. The story of those two always intrigued me. Jienna told me everything. How Killua used to be this cold bastard and never used to care about anyone or anything. But ever since Gon started to talk to him, no, more like push himself into Killua's life, the guy completely changed. According to Jienna he was still cold and all but he was a little different that he used to be. I was brought out of my thoughts when the volleyball came towards me. My instincts kicked in and hit the ball back with as much force as I could. I looked at the other side and saw Killua grinning. I mustered up the best glare I could and got into the stance ready for the ball. Soon our harmless volleyball match turned into a vicious battle that could kill. What can I say. I really hate egoistic bastards. I smirked when my team won. I looked at Killua, his arrogant smirk still not wiped of his face and drenched with sweat. His lips were parted slightly and he was panting. His silver hair was matted on his forehead and still he managed to look hot. The girls were already swooning over him trying to sniff his sweat. I rolled my eyes and diverted my attention to Menchi. She took out her whistle and blew on it signaling us to gather around. I walked toward the rest of the class counting my steps one by one. I took a deep breath and let it out. Everything was fine so far. There's nothing to worry. I was taken aback when Jienna pulled me aside. She was panting as well. Her auburn hair stuck to her neck as her brown eyes bore into me. "Is something going on between you and Killua?" I shrugged and shook my head. "No. Nothing that I know of. But I just hate that guy." I said as I started walking toward the changing rooms. "Really? How come? The guy is HOT" she said with a giggle imitating one of Killua's fangirls. I chuckled. "He might be hot but that guy is all looks. He's a total asshole." Jienna turned around and faced me. Both of us stopped in our tracks. I shot Jienna a questioning look. "The guy might have been an asshole before Lynn, but he's definitely changed. He's become..I can't say social, but... I mean... Don't be so hard on him. Give the guy a chance. Cause I think he's really trying to be a better person" Jienna said these words in such a gentle tone that it surprised me. She used to hate Killua. What changed?