My Old Poems (2011)

Time #19

I wish I could

Go back in time

If I could I would

To get rid of this crime

I would tear

The walls

Of fear

Out of these halls

My mind

Is out of my control

I'm am stuck behind

I no longer have a role

In this life

I just sit there and ponder 

If I deserve this strife 

I have many more things to wonder

This has been taken to a new level

I am so lost

I feel like I am pivoting on a swivel

I am tossed

Like a pebble

Skipping across the sea

So turn up the treble

So I can be free

I've lost my dignity

And I can't get away from

This enmity 

That beats me like a drum

What else is there

To do

But fear

But what is true

I do not control my mind

I am a puppet with a puppeteer

I glide with the wind

The end is near

I played right into your plan

Now you are pulling my strings

I am your biggest fan

You guide my wings

For I am too blind 

To see the path

For which I want to find

To get away from his wrath

I want to be alone

I have many a question

That I don't want shown

This will require your participation

I am still standing here

Just waiting

In fear

How degrading

I wish I could

Go back in time

If I could I would

Back when I was in my prime

So I could take back 

My mistake

Get back on track

And stop being fake