Love Blaine

Chapter 24

Sadly the New Directions didn't win at Nationals but it was okay. First it was kind of a bummer but then they realized that they had fun the whole time and that's the most important. Also it was their first year and they already made it to Nationals so they did well and the others were reall really good.

Then it's finally time for the summer holidays. For Kurt and for Blaine. This time Blaine was the one to send Kurt a song book for Glee Club and it arrived about a month after Kurts actual birthday because he wanted to give Kurt a broadway song book and it had troubles to deliver but he told Kurt in a letter and the latter of course understood.

Blaines graduation was okay. Nothing special and pretty small. He and Wes went to the restaurant nearby with Wes parents and Pam. Robert had a meeting at work or simply wasn't interested in his sons graduation but it was probably for the better.

In the beginning of the holidays Finn, Carlos, Burt and Kurt go on vacation to Paris as Kurt wished for his birthday. A week Paris. Family vacation. When he's back he and Rachel go on vacation with Rachels dads again.

It became sort of a ritual to go on vacation for two or three weeks in summer. This time they decided against europe and instead to Mexico because Rachel wanted to see what it's like there.

For Blaine that means no Kurt. Sure he gets post cards but they can't actively write letters. Even worse is that Wes is on vacation too so Blaine is bored. A lot. His mother works and his dad most likely does too but Blaine doesn't know, care and want to know. But at least that way Blaine has a lot of time to think and so his mind often goes back to one place.

Is he really straight? Does he like Kurt? Does he like him more than a friend? How does he feel around girls? He doesn't feel the same like he feels for Kurt. Is it only Kurt? Or Kurt in general? Is he gay? Does he like Kurt? How can he be sure? He never saw Kurt and who knows if he ever will. And no one said that Kurt feels the same about him. Does he like Kurt? Does Kurt like him back? Questions over questions swirl around in his head.

So let's say he is gay. How can he come out? To Kurt in a letter of course. It would be easy. Probably easy. Coming out to Wes would maybe be a little harder because it's face to face but he will understand. But his parents? He has no clue how his mother would react but his dad would be furious. Most likely. He doesn't know for sure.

With the last days passing Blaine gets more and more sure about himself. And about his sexuality. He's gay. He knows that now. Now he has to come out. Why does that has to be so hard?

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Dear Kurt

I realized something about myself and I just gonna tell you so it's out.

I'm gay.

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"No this is stupid" Blaien says and throws the paper in the trash can. Maybe he should tell Wes first. No. He wants to tell Kurt first even tho he's still in Mexico for a week. The curly haired boy takes a deep breath and decides that it's probably best to just write without thinking much.

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Dear Kurt

I don't know when you read this but I hope you had a good time in Mexico.

While Wes and you were gone I had some time to think and I realized something about myself. I'm gay and I finally realized and accepted it. I've been questioning for quite some time as you know but now I'm sure.

I thought that was hard. Figuring myself out. But I feel like coming out is just as hard. Maybe harder. How did you felt when telling your friends and did it feel different with your dad?

You were the first person I told. I feel the most comfortable with you. Next I want to tell Wes because I know that he will accept it too.

Only part I'm scared of is telling my parents. My dad more than my mom.

I guess that's all I have to say and I really just wanred you to be the first person I tell.

Love Blaine

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One day later Blaine meets with Wes. He came back home yesterday and they wanted to meet in the mall anyway to talk and get everything for their first year in high school. After they got everything they sit down in a café to eat something for lunch. Blaine takes a deep breath. It's time "Wes I have to tell you something". "Me too actually but you can go first" his best friend answers.

"No. You go first. I think I still need a little time to put it into the right words" Blaine says. He laughs nervously but his best friend luckily either doesn't notices or jost ignores it and instead he starts telling "Anna and I talked a lot while I was away. We called and texted and yesterday evening we met after I came home. We- Well we are together now" he smiles widely and Blaine smiles with him "I'm so happy for you Wes. You two were close so I just waited until you two are a couple together. You're growing up so fast Wesley. You have your first girlfriend".

Both laugh at that before Blaine gets serious again and Wes clears his throat "Now what did you wanted to say?". "I- uhm- I recently found something about myself. Or I found out quite a while ago but now I fully accepted it and I'm ready to tell people. I- I'm- I'm gay" Blaine stutters and his best friend smiles "And in love with Kurt right?". "How did you-" Blaine starts but he can't even finish because Wes says "It's the way you talk about him Blainers. And how happy you are. You're smiling or laughing when you tell something about him or even think of him.

"Okay yeah. I like Kurt a lot and I just wanted you to know. I told him that I'm gay yesterday in a letter. He's not home at the moment but I wanted to tell him first and he can read it as soon as he gets home again. He told me about Sams coming out and then about him questioning and him coming out and if it wouldn't be for that I probably would still either think I'm straight or never even start questioning" Blaine rambles.

"But you didn't told him that you like him right?" Wes asks and raises an eyebrow. Blaine shakes his head furiously "No! Of course not". "But what if he likes you back?" Wes asks and Blaine answers "It wouldn't work out. We live two hours apart and never even saw each other". "If you say so Blainers" Wes shrugs but smiles.

It kinda feels stupid to write a second letter to Kurt, knowing that he's still not even home. But Blaine does it anywaywhen he's back at home and up in his room. His mom is cooking dinner and his dad sits on the couch with another beer and already drunk so Blaine locked the door behind him.

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Dear Kurt
This letter won't be long and I have to hurry because dinner is ready soon. I just want to tell you this one thing.

I was out with Wes today to buy school stuff and we went to get lunch. I told him now and he completely accepted it. He told me wonderful news too.

Wes update: He and Anna (I told you about her a while ago) are together nwo. Wes has his first girlfriend. I'm really happy for him.

I was nervous before telling Wes but he took it easy. Naturally. I think he had a suspicion that I might be but he couldn't be sure so he never mentioned.
I just realized something while writing this. Wes has a girlfriend. Sam and Mercedes are together and Rachel and Finn are a couple too. And then there's us. The singles haha. I'm sure we'll find the right person eventually but for now we are the fun singles in our friend groups.

Mom just called. Dinner is ready.

Love Blaine