I love him but I rather not be..

45: Underestimate

:Drake's POV:

I've been staring at my phone for what? Hours? It seems that I can't think of anything to say to her. Though after reading her text it made me go crazy as shit!

Even if I don't know what Elaine is trying to do, I don't have any choice. She has a decision on her own, and she decides its inevitable.

I'm scared of the possibilities that Daniel was serious about stealing her away from me and it also makes so uneasy since last night, i don't know what came to me for acting like that.

Maybe I was really into her now, it's starting all over again, i tried to control my possessiveness towards her but its just so damn hard not to feel pissed when she's with somebody else especially when it comes to her bestfriend who thinks he can outrun me with his persuasive moves.

Time is ticking and days are now being counted before the graduation. I'm not really excited about the graduation, what i'm more concerned is how will I ask her to come with me to states though I know that her mom will also be doing anything just for her to go abroad.

Whatever the reason is, all i know is it's for her own good, but i'm not sure of how will Elaine react on this arrangement.

I didn't sleep at all, I was thinking about her and her text to me the whole night. It was weekend and we're already finished with our projects, we are only waiting for the day of our commencement exercise.

It was only 8 in the morning when I left my house and went to Elaine's. I need to know her purpose for this and also i need to apologize about yesterday, about my attitude.

I arrived at her house and she was still asleep, I stayed at their garden with her prepared breakfast. Probably her nanny will be waking her up because i'm here.

Few minutes later, she was walking towards me with a towel slinged in her shoulder a sign that she just came from bath.

"Hey" i stand up and welcomed with a kiss on her cheeks, i can see her surprised reaction from my pheriperal view.

"Uhm, hi! Ang aga mo naman, and why didn't you tell me na pupunta ka dito para makapag prepare man lang sana ng foo-" i cut her off

" sorry about last night,my attitude was really bad yesterday..and I know uhmm sorry.." I don't know what to say..

"It's fine Drake, I understand but of course i'm worried because, I never saw you act that way before, what happened ba?" I don't know if I can say it to her, would she understand if i told her?

"It was all about uhmmm.. Shit! I don't like him being around you" I blurted out, at first she glared at me but later on smiled.

"Why are you smiling? Is something funny about what i said?" She was still smiling at me. "Jealous boy" she said and sat beside me.

It took time before it registered on my mind, was i just really jealous? Woah! I never been jealous!

I sat and drink my coffee and faced her again "what time will you be seeing him?" She looked at me seriously and she also looked worried "sinabi ko na sunduin nya ko by 7pm, i'm sorry kung biglaan Drake" she held my hand "but I think i need to do this now."

:Daniel's POV:

Siguro halos 30 minutes na akong paikot ikot sa sala nina Elaine habang hinihintay ko ang pagbaba niya. Kahit na napaaga ako ng dating ay pakiramdam ko ay late ako, ewan ko ba.

The moment i read her message, i was surprised by it. Dahil ako mismo ay nagiisip narin ng paraan para makita siya at masolo siya.

Naapektuhan akong mabuti sa pangyayari sa school, when i was in the verge of giving up then he showed up ang insulted me, that's when i realized that i want her bad, so bad that there's no turning back anymore.

Sa buhay kong to, masasabi ko that this was not the first time that i have changed my mind, ilang beses kong sinubukan na pigilan, kunin, tigilan at ngayon ay sigurado na ako na akin siya.

Napatigil ako sa kinatatayuan ko ng nakita ko na siyang pababa galing sa kwarto niya. Sa simpleng white vneck shirt at denim pants ay nagawa niya akong pangangahin. Napakasimple siya simula palang at yun ang bagay na sadyang nakakaakit saakin sa tuwina.

"Let's go?" Di ko namalayan na nasa harapan ko na siya.

"Ah..yeah" iminuwestra ko ang aking kamay para mauna siya.

Sa sasakyan ay tahimik lang, kanina ay tinanong ko siya kung saan niya gusto pumunta ngunit sabi niya ay ako na ang bahala. Ngayon ay nakatingin lamang siya sa bintana at madalas ay nahuhuli niya akong patingin tingin sa kanya.

"I need to be home before 11" sinabi niya iyon ng hindi tumitingin saakin, alam ko nanaman ang curfew niya at sinisigurado ko namang nakakapasok muna siya ng bahay bago ako umalis.

Lumipas ang isang oras at nakarating na kami sa isang seaside restaurant. Light meals lamang ang inorder ni Elaine kaya ganun na lamang din ang inorder ko.

" I'll go straight to the point Daniel, what happened sa school that day? I want a detailed one." Diretso niyang tingin saakin.

Wala akong nagawa but to tell her everything, she didn't talk at all nung nagsasalita ako, nakatingin lamang siya saakin.

"I'm sorry" umpisa ko " I know hindi ko dapat ginawa iyon, but Elaine, you know me to well alam mong i wouldn't do that without a good reason"

"Do I?" Sagot niya saakin "because right now Daniel? Hindi na talaga ako sigurado kung ikaw pa ba yung dating kilala ko" seryoso siyang nakatingin saakin "wala akong gustong kampihan Daniel kasi ayokong maging unfair sainyo, but as i saw it that day parang ikaw ang nagumpisa, so i'm sorry if I concluded agad"

Hindi ko inaasahan na mag sosorry siya saakin, mas lalo akong nainis sa sarili ko dahil ako ang may pagkakamali pero bakit siya pa ang nag sorry?

"Elaine hindi ikaw ang dapat magsorry, ako dapat, kami dapat, dahil kami naman ni Drake ang may kasalanan, hindi ka dapat nadamay." Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya "alam kong dahil doon ay siguro nagkagulo din kayo ni Drake but everything i said that the day was true, and i'm sorry if i'm telling this to you now, i still love you and nothing can stop it, even you"

Bigla niyang kinuha ang kamay niya at umiwas ng tingin "akala ko ba Daniel ay okay na, nagkalinawan na tayo noon ah" utas niya "akala ko rin Elaine, pero wala akong magawa kahit anung pigil ko, i'm crazily and overly smitten to you" shit! bakit ngayon pa.

Napaawang ang bibig ni Elaine dahil sa mga sinabi ko, namula siya at agad niya kinuha ang gamit niya at lumabas.

Hinabol ko siya at tumigil sa harap ng sasakyan ko. "Iuwi mo nlla ko Daniel" agad kong binuksan ang pinto at pinasakay habang mabilis kong pinaandar ang sasakyan at umalis.

Nasa tapat na ako ng bahay nila nung nakapagsalita ako ulit "I'm sorry Elaine, pero alam kong mahal mo pa ako at yun ang pinanghahawakan ko kaya hanggang ngayon hindi ako sumusuko." Bahagya siyang bumagal at napatingin saakin.

"You are crazy Daniel, sumuko ka nalang hangga't maaga pa dahil, i never saw myself anymore with you" at tuloy tuloy na siyang umalis at pumasok sa bahay nila

What have I done? No she just said that para tumigil ako, pero alam ko na meron pa, meron pa siyang nararamdaman, feelings are something that cannot be easily changed, shifted or underestimated.

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