I love him but I rather not be..

48: Closure

:Elaine's POV:

It was as if that a day passes by just like minutes. Ever since that I asked for a break up with Drake hindi niya na ako kinausap at pinansin. After ng sinabi ko ay agad siyang nag bill out at umalis sa cafe.

Hindi ko na alam kung ano pang gagawin ko kaya't pumunta na lang ako sa parking lot at hinanap ang sasakyan nya. He was already there at naka tuon lang siya sa may manibela. What I did was definitely wrong pero mas mali naman siguro kung tinuloy namin to at sa huli parehas lang kaming masaktan.

He saw me and he unlocked the door pero di nya parin ako pinapansin. Hinatid niya lang ako sa bahay at umalis din ito kaagad. Naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit niya yun ginawa even I would do that just like what I did nung sinaktan ako ni Daniel.

I cried myself to sleep dahil sa galit ko sa sarili ko and the fact that I want to stay dito sa kwarto hanggang kainin na lang ako ng kama dahil ayoko na silang makita, pero graduation mo bukas?

Pa gising gising ako tapos iiyak na lang ulit ako at makakatulog hanggang sa 5am na at tuluyan na lamang akong hindi natulog nagbukas ako ng facebook ko at kung anu anong posts lamang ang nakita ko. Yung iba sa mga kaibigan ko ay nagblowout na kaagad with their families.

Sabi saakin ni mommy na may nireserve silang restaurant after graduation andun daw ang mga tita ko and my cousins hindi na rin mawawala ang mga kaibigan nina Dad sa mga business nila. Pero mom didn't mention kung dadating ba ang pamilya ni Daniel, siguro naman hindi dahil kailangan nila ng family dinner.

Nag surf na lang ako sa youtube ng mga videos hanggang sa lumiwanag na at mag aalas otso na. Pag ka baba ko ay nakita ko si Mommy na nasa garden at ang dad naman na nasa dining table at may kausap sa phone.

Sumenyas nalang ako ng goodmorning at humalik sa kanyang pisngi. Lumapit naman ako kay mommy at napnsin na inaayos niya ang ibang bulaklak sa garden namin.

"Goodmorning mom" tumingin si mommy saakin at ngumiti. "Elaine come here I have something to say to you" lumapit ako sa kanya at tumabi habang pinapalitan niya ng lupa ang paso

"Gardening was my favorite thing to do, it relaxes me and it makes me feel so light" nagulat ako sa sinabi ni mommy dahil everytime na nakikita ko siya ay laging papeles at all about business ang inaasikaso niya.

"Ikaw? What makes you calm? What relaxes you?" Tanong saakin ni mommy

"Painting mom, everything that shows art feeling ko doon ako pinaka expressive and proud, it is when I paint when I can truly show myself ad what I feel" never did I expect that I can say to my mom ang mga ganitong bagay when we have conversations ay laging about sa career ko or kung plano ko ba daw na i handle ang mga business nila.

"I have never given you time and asked you what you wanted, all your sisters i never asked them but alam naman namin ng Dad mo na iba ang gusto nila, but now Elaine ikaw ang bunso namin and I want to be right this time, gusto ko masaya ka sa gagawin mo, nagtalo kami ng Dad mo kagabi dahil gusto ng daddy mo na you take up business course just like your sisters. Pero I wanted you to choose whatever you want." I could never believe that mom would say this things to me now, she was never been expressive at sa kanilang dalawa ni Dad ay laging mas authorative si mom.

"Mom I do like arts pero gusto kong mag abogado, just like you, maybe art is like your gardening it relaxes me pero it doesn't mean na yun na dapat ang piliin ko, if you didn't decide for my sisters would they be that successful now? I would be angry kung kayo ang pipili para saakin but i'm sure that kaya niyo iyon pinili because your thinking what's best for me" I got teary with this kind of conversation pero tama rin siguro ang timing ng ganito.

"Mom, I'm really happy because you're letting me decide at I know you've been into a lot of things para saamin. Pero gusto kong mag Law mom, not to follow you and dad's dreams but because it's what I think is best for me, dahil narin siguro namana ko ang reasoning mo mom" mom looked at me na parang naasar siya sa sinabi ko but instead she pulled me into a hug.

"We're proud of you Elaine, kayo ng mga ate mo and we were never been vocal to you guys but we love you that's why we like this and right now na college na ang bunso ko, I feel that I've won the best prize ever" we were hugging each other nang sumunod si Dad

"And bakit di niyo ko sinama sa drama niying dalawa? Anung oras na ha? Kailangan pang mag pa beauty ng mga Donya" mom and I looked at each other and laughed si Dad naman ay nakisali na at yumakap saamin dalawa.

Wow, I admit medyo malakas maka MMK ang nangyari kanina pero I feel so happy right now dahi doon. We ate breakfast at kami ni mom ay naligo na at hihintayin nalang namin si Jazz ang makeup artist ni mom. Si dad naman ay nag update lang sa business niya saka naligo narin at nagbihis.

4pm pa ang calltime namin sa school for the Graduation march. 11am ng dumating si Jazz inuna niya ang Mommy at syempre napakaganda ng kinalabasan nito. Ako naman ang sinunod niya pero ang sabi ni mommy ay light at simple lang makeup dahil bata pa daw ako, kinulot niya lang ang buhok ko.

I can na itong araw na ito ay ang pinaka masayang araw hindi dahil sa I will be finishing highschool but also this way the day na masasabing kong me and my family are still close and sure it will be a lot happier dahil ngayon ay wala ng ka pressure pressure sa isip ko.

But until now paano si Daniel and Drake? I still need the closure for them to understand why I am doing this decision.

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