Sweetest Pain || Hawk Moskowitz

120 I Might Break

Hawk
So karate after school?

KT💍
Raincheck?

Hawk
OK do u still want to hang out?

KT💍
Can't

Hawk
Y?

KT💍
I just can't

Hawk
R u mad at me?
Did I do smtg wrong?

KT💍
No ofc not
I just don't feel well today

Hawk
R u OK?

KT💍
I had another panic attack
It just took a lot of my energy

Hawk
Is that y u weren't at lunch?

KT💍
Yea
I just wanna rest when I get home

Hawk
OK ❤️
U know u could have come to me

Another message didn't come through. Hawk's heart sank as he stared at his screen, his mind solely on KT.

It wandered over to how well she'd been doing with their training, how it had helped her focus her energy into something a little less fast paced. She didn't have to think about anything but her next move and it distracted her for a while. Even the drills were helpful.

So he had to wonder...

Hawk
Did smtg happen to cause it this time?
The panic attack

He waited and waited, and waited.

The passage of time felt like hours, and it gave his mind space enough to wonder. Did someone say something to her? Did someone bother her? If so, were they Miyagi-Do or Cobra Kai? I swear, if one of the guys said something to her, I'll-

His phone dinged.

KT💍
No

It didn't quite sit right with him. He stared at the message, the simple little pixels making up a simple two letter word.

However, no matter how he felt, she'd told him no, so he wouldn't push her further. He knew she'd talk about it when she was ready, not that she shared with many people about her panic attacks. What good would it do to make her more uncomfortable?

Hawk
OK
Well I hope u feel better ❤️

KT💍
Thx me too
I'm so sick of this

Hawk got that sinking feeling again. He didn't know what to say, what there was to say, because what would make her feel better? As far as he knew, nothing. He also knew that did jack shit to fix anything.

I wish I could just make her panic attacks go away, so she never had to suffer again, he thought to himself. He rubbed his hands over his face, semi-comfortable on his bed as he sat cross legged. He felt like shit for sitting there, doing nothing. I should be with her...

Hawk
Do u want me to come over?

KT💍
Sorry but no
I just want to b on my own rn

Hawk
That's OK
Don't apologize
U need ur space

KT💍
Thank u for understanding

Hawk
❤️

KT💍
💖

Quietly, he wished her well one more time.