fierce and forgiving:second chances

chapter 28

"Hello everyone,this motivational section would be good for most y'all because the teen age is the most complicated and I would love for you to cheer our speaker for this evening" Mrs Carmen said smiling and the sounds of claps and cheers were re sounding in the hall.
    I was straightening my skirt when the speaker walked in and I was shocked when his cologne engulfed my nose,I didn't dare look up

"Good evening everyone,you all look spiffy and sharp,I wish I looked like most of you,I would have had a better chance with the ladies" the speaker said chuckling and the room erupted with laughter all except mine

"Its a lovely chance I got to address teens and I couldn't pass it up,I am Michael Smitters and am honoured to be in your midst" my dad said bowing a little when I looked up to see him.
     He took an all round check of his surrounding and when his eye landed on me we both froze,we locked gaze but I dropped it sooner,it took a lot not to bolt out the door screaming profanities at him,I had to have self control

"So I would be taking you on letting go is just a fancy word for ignoring your pain,work through it,most of you probably think you don't have issues but you do" he started and I just zoned out
    I was staring at him and he knew it,if he was uncomfortable he didn't show it,tension was oozing and emitting from me and I guess eddy felt it

"Are you okay cupcake?" He said placing his hand on mine and the gesture calmed me a little...I couldn't talk so I nodded

"Sometimes people make mistakes they aren't proud of,they do things without thinking,making them loose the things that keep them sane,realizing a little too late they wish they could change everything" Michael said locking gazes with me,the rest didn't suspect anything to them he was been insightful to me it sounded more like an apology

"Therez nothing like letting go but working through the pain is hard,you start to wonder that you survived today,would you survive the next,I want you to know your strong and that you should give life a second chance,give yourself a second chance to be happy and love and most of all give the person that wronged you a second chance to make it right" he said looking at me with tender eyes,I feel the tears that I have been suppressing coming back,I have to leave before I make a scene

"I have to go pee" I told Eddy so no one would be worried when they find my spot empty a tear rolled down my cheeck and if Eddy noticed he did a good job of hiding it.
    I gave Michael one last glance and he gave me pleading looks as if to say he wasn't done but guess what I was already done listening to his bull crap,when I was finally out I let out all the tears I suppressed, I welcome the agonizing memory
"Help" I shouted
"Shut up you brat" he said hitting my face as he continued to molest me
I can hear all my pleas,how I tried to push him away,it is all in my head and I cry more,I feel chilly but the horrible memories warm me up,I feel numb inside out and silent tears continue to roll down my face,I can't feel my body but I know my legs are taking me where I want to be,to the beach.
    I wrap my hands around myself and I keep on walking,I was already in the ocean,I was still walking,I am numb to every emotion and feeling,my head has gone into overdrive and it can't take anymore or anything,I wasn't that far from the shore line,the water was mid my leg not too close to my knee

"Are you going to keep running away" Eddy shouted,why was he here,I turned around and saw him standing on shore,my head wasn't willing to process anything,it felt good been in the ocean