fierce and forgiving:second chances

chapter 33

      Am not sure if I was having a panick attack or I was freaking out,why was I freaking out so much,no am not freaking out am just too stunned,its not like he asked me to marry him or move in with him PR anything,its just to be his girlfriend right

"Earth to Bethany.......hello" Evans said waving his hands in front of my face

"Oh wow,umm I wasn't really expecting that" I said still shocked trying to get out of my head

"Soo...." He asked

"I would have to sleep on it for awhile,I won't leave you hanging don't worry" I said squeezing his hands when his looks fell in disappointment

"Well we should eat our picnic lunch before it gets cold" he said motioning to the basket

     I kept wondering about a billion possible reasons he would ask me out but none seems to be right,I do not have self esteem issues PR anything g of that sort but I wasn't the curviest or prettiest girl out there,yea most of you are probably wondering why its so hard to believe a guy could possibly like me for been the incredibly awesome person I am,well it is for me,deal with it.

       In order for me to avoid answering his question I had to avoid him,well I didn't make it that obvious that I was avoiding him,I just didn't spend more than 5 minutes with him,I didn't wanna get his hopes up and not turn out to be what he expected.

      Don't get me wrong Evans is every girls dream,he has the looks,he's caring and sweet,he is attentive and all but it takes a lot to care for another person besides yourself,am not an egolistic freak or anything but I barely love and care about myself, how was I supposed to make him happy, my heart is telling me to let him make me happy instead but it would be selfish of me wouldn't it

"Why are you ignoring my brother" Evi asked out of nowhere,when did she even get to my locker

"No am not" I said shoving books into my locker

"Yes you are ignoring him,you know you are and when did you start lieing" she said sounding all interrogative

"Why would you say am lieing" I asked confused

"Well your doing that finger thingy where you contiually hit your finger on an object" she pointed out

"No am not" I said shoving my hands into my pocket just in case I was,I didn't even know o was that open,it makes me wonder who else knows about the finger thingy

"Whatever,just know you ignoring him is really breaking him and am the only one allowed to do that" she said as we headed to the lunch room

"Its refreshing to know the reason why you cared is because you don't want someone else taking your job not because you actually love him" I replied her

"Well we all can't be you,can we" she said sauntering away,leaving me behind

"Hey,what's that supposed to mean" I shouted to her

    We both sat at the table with Claire and Evans who were chatting away,already done with their lunch,Evi and I barely brought our lunch out when the bell rang signalling lunch over

"Arghh....the things I do for you" Evi said pissed slapping the back of an unsuspecting Evans head

"Ouch,what did I do this time" Evans asked confused while rubbing the spot

"Walk me to class would you" I asked him,linking our hands together. To say he was shocked by my actions would be an understatement

"You do know we have the same class right" he said wiping his former look with a smirk

"Even better" I replied and with that everything was back to the way it was making everyone happy but the next events that happened was so unexpected I could barely talk.
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Thank you to everyone that is still reading this book even when I don't update everyday... God bless
Love mola
26.06.15