fierce and forgiving:second chances

chapter 40

            Bethany's POV

    I woke up to a beeping sound of a heart monitor and soft sobs,wait why was there a heart monitor and why is someone crying or is it mumbling,I tried to made clear of the mumblings,the person sounded angry or sad,can't really say.
      I wanted to open my eyes buy my lids felt heavy, I was done sleeping and I wanted to wake up so I used all I had to open them,I squinted because the light was way too bright,I tried sitting up but I felt a sharp pain in the hand I once used to support myself up making me fall back to the bed,the pain stung and surged through my whole body and the crash I made back to the bed hurt the back of my head even more,it was unbearable,my head felt like it was going to split any minute, silent tears started falling,I just wanted the pain to go away even though I couldn't remember how I got it in the first place

"Am sorry for hurting you,it won't ever happen again" Evan said holding my other hand,how did he even get here,I guess he was the one mumbling incoherent words

"What are you talking about" I asked not sure of anything that happened before now my voice sounding alien to my ears,raspy and scratchy,I didn't even recognize it was mine

      Waves and waves of memories came surging to me,the argument with Evans, everything he said,the way he looked,I started withdrawing my hands from his, still stunned by the person beside me

"Please don't push me away" he said lowly

"You should really have thought of that and frankly I don't even know you" I said feeling angry and sad,mostly sad at myself so much pain because I let my emotions take over

"Am still the same me,I promise,am sorry I was so jealous" he pleaded

"I wanna be alone" I said facing away from him

    Thankfully he got the message and left and I started weeping softly, his words still stung,and my hand even more,everything I felt that evening came rushing back, the nauseating smell of hospital and drugs made it worse making me wish it was just a bad dream and I would soon wake up,but no it wasn't,it is my reality and with that sleep called me and I yielded without struggle

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  I woke up and my room smelt like a flower shop,I looked around and it pratically looked like one,way different from how I saw it earlier,I wasn't complaining though,its way better than the dull lifeless look it had earlier

"Who died"I said trying to make out who was in the room

"Well considering you were asleep for like 10 days which is more than a week,I think it is only fair to call it a temporary death" Claire said with a thinking look,finger on chin and all

"Well I ditched Mr death because I had a lot to loose and I wasn't ready to leave anyways" I said trying to hide all the emotions I felt,I really hope she doesn't ask what happened, am trying so hard to forget and bringing it up wouldn't help much

"You look a mess" she said giggling

"Your my best friend,you should say stuffs to make me feel better" I whined jokingly

"Oh I was been honest,didn't know you were feeling bad" she Stated

"Ohh my head is bandaged and so is my wrist,am not hurting alright, just wanted to play dress up" I retorted smiling small, trying not to make things awkward

"How are you,are you okay?" She asked concerned
I knew she wanted to know everything but I was glad she was taking slow baby steps

"Yea, I would be fine" I said staring at my wrist

I am incredibly and utterly sorry for the very much delayed update,I hope it never ever happens again and thanks for sticking with me and reading my book,shout at to litterator am glad his book is doing very well even though am kinda jealous,am happy for him and for everyone that read this book,I love you sooo much,thank you,and to everyone I dissapointed am sincerely sorry
I hope to update soon
29.07.15
Love mola