black or white
which to choose?
both scream for my attention
trapping me in tension
broke a heart today
i think it felt quite good
but guilt eats at me
how awful can i be?
between two poles
a living paradox
if i choose to run away,
what price will i pay?
this confusion pains me
never able to decide
i'll be good today
until i send everyone away
i crave with all my being
terrified by the very same thing
a sensitive mind
a mind in a freezing bind
nothing and everything
not so far apart
they coincide within
dripping from my skin
i want to fly free
do as i please
change makes me hurl
yet shines like pearl
happy and sad
loving and cold
angry and calm
i'm a ticking time bomb
drown in self hatred
i really am a god
superior to all
with insecurities tall
i want to run
but can't run from myself
unless i make good on a vow
and end my life now
tearing at the edges
never sure of how i feel
it's my design
standing on this borderline
